i'm sick of the waiting. my patience is waning. . .
i'm sucked into a world i don't understand. this world of adult hood just doesn't make sense to me. i just want to walk around forever with music blaring in my ears. i'm no musician. i wish i was but i lack the passion. i don't have passion for anything anymore. perhaps my spirit is finally crushed. the sadness is gone though and i don't regret either. is this just a phase or have i finally found even ground. the soles of my feet are bleeding from treading uneven ground for so long. i'm not exhausted though. i want to keep going. i have an urge to rip the hearts of the vulnerable and weak so they can learn to move forward too. so they can see that pain isn't so bad. pain is why we exist. it makes us human. it makes us tolerable to the rest of the race. but anyway i don't expect this to make any sense or for anybody to read it but it's just the random thoughts of somebody who's found peace with in herself.