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i doubt this post is going to give much information or go anywhere for that matter.
i spent all my free time yesterday thinking about myself. i don't do that much anymore. just sit around and think on my situation. how i've gotten here and where i'd like to go. i've realized something very grand and depressing. other than getting a car i really don't have anything. no ideas on where i want to move to. what job i'd like to have. if going back to school is an option or not. nothing. i sat there and thought about all these things and it hit me:
my mother's influences and my own weakening will have killed my dreams. i couldn't think of anything i wanted to do with my life. not even the small things. like where i want to shop or what color to dye my hair or style. it's all gone. when i was done i felt that hole inside me open up again. it's been quite awhile since i've come across it.
what do i do now?
i spent all my free time yesterday thinking about myself. i don't do that much anymore. just sit around and think on my situation. how i've gotten here and where i'd like to go. i've realized something very grand and depressing. other than getting a car i really don't have anything. no ideas on where i want to move to. what job i'd like to have. if going back to school is an option or not. nothing. i sat there and thought about all these things and it hit me:
my mother's influences and my own weakening will have killed my dreams. i couldn't think of anything i wanted to do with my life. not even the small things. like where i want to shop or what color to dye my hair or style. it's all gone. when i was done i felt that hole inside me open up again. it's been quite awhile since i've come across it.
what do i do now?