A friend is a friend. I think?

Jan 11, 2010 02:07

Okay, so, lately I have been thinking that I have been relying on my friends too much to keep me happy.

But, the second they turn their backs I instantly think they hate me. I think I have grown too comfortable with them and now they want to move on... It happens. Except, I am still clinging to those good memories.

I think I have been thinking about this lately because I have lost a few really good friends lately, I don't know why. It's almost as if I blinked and I missed everything. How can a friendship change so drastically?

I love my friends, but they just always seem to fade away eventually. :/

I want the friendships to last.

I think I have realized that, if you depend too much on people then you become lazy and can't do anything for yourself, and then once they are gone, you get angry and sad.

Then you constantly think negative thoughts. It's a boring life.

I would have to say that if you want anything done, you have to do it yourself, otherwise it is useless to keep asking for help and it never happens.

For me, I have to make my life better, without depending on friends to always keep me satisfied. I have to do things for myself so I can become a better person than my mum. (harsh I know but you don't know the full storyyy. >_> )

I don't know. I just want to become the best person I can be without having to please everyone. Because they are my toughest critics.

I try my best, but maybe that's all I can do for now. Byebye~ <3
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