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Jul 14, 2011 15:21

i had to ruin the delicious cake, so not fabulous, replicaaaaa, sad day, fuck my life, my god what have i done, so intense, brb hating self, how i do public speaking, come listen to my issues

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offallingsnow July 14 2011, 21:59:06 UTC

[Nephry hears this, but doesn't have anything useful to say at the time. Or anything she wants to say in such an impersonal manner.

It's pure coincidence that she passes him later, as he searches for people.]

Good afternoon, Luke.

cakeblocked July 14 2011, 22:04:43 UTC

[Coincidentally, Nephry was one of those people he was looking for. Once she greets him, Luke looks at her with wide eyes, then looks away. He's never sure what to say to these people... the ones he was so rude to just a week ago.]

Nephry...

offallingsnow July 14 2011, 22:10:28 UTC

There's no need to look like I'm going to shout at you.

cakeblocked July 14 2011, 22:15:41 UTC

... [He chances a glance at her.] You're not going to?

offallingsnow July 14 2011, 22:17:09 UTC

I might. For apologizing so severely for something over which you had no control.

Maybe you were like that once. That doesn't put you at fault for being forced to act like that again.

cakeblocked July 14 2011, 22:20:55 UTC

But Nephry... [And again, he can't meet her eyes.] I used to be just like that, and not that long ago, either. If I was brought here months ago instead of right then, I...

What I'm trying to say is that that was still me. I still said all those things...

offallingsnow July 14 2011, 22:24:22 UTC

And it likely didn't hurt any less, for others to hear you say them even while they knew you had just been kidnapped.

[But. She isn't having this conversation with him to make him feel worse. Time to change direction.]

What would you have to do, in order to be a good person?

cakeblocked July 14 2011, 22:43:22 UTC

[... He fists one of his hands, and he's silent for a few seconds. He isn't really sure, but...]

I guess... the only thing I can do is keep doing good things. Like what I'm doing right now... It's a start, right? [He asks as if he's genuinely curious. He's doing the right thing, isn't he? Or is it too forward...]

offallingsnow July 14 2011, 22:46:25 UTC

Does it feel right? If you forget about the fear that everyone is going to hate you for who you were, because they might think that's who you still are?

[hate you 'again' goes unsaid. But she does know.]

cakeblocked July 15 2011, 00:10:09 UTC

I think... what I'm doing is right. Just leaving a message on the journal wasn't really enough... It felt like I was just throwing out an apology and expecting people to take it.

Even if some of these people hate me for it... I still want to let them see who I am now. I don't want them to know me for who I once was.

offallingsnow July 15 2011, 00:11:41 UTC

Whether or not your apology is accepted isn't something you can control.

What do you expect to do, as you offered, that will help?

cakeblocked July 15 2011, 03:04:47 UTC

... Whatever anyone wants me to do for them, I guess. I can't just do something and expect someone to be happy with it. I want to ask first... and let me know what I can do.

offallingsnow July 15 2011, 16:08:07 UTC

No matter what they ask?

cakeblocked July 15 2011, 23:10:07 UTC

Yeah. No matter what they ask.

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