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I can't sleep.
I can't sleep because things and thoughts run through my mind, and I can't make my brain relax. Its a constant what I should have said, what I should have did/done, and why I didn't do something...over and over again...and then it all goes back to one person and how I make myself feel guilty for no apparent reason.....there aren't any more prospects...and I really want to get married and not have to go to school...which I will not being doing until I'm done with school...don't worry.
Today I went to school and led and drum circle at an Elementary school...came back and went to orchestra and trio...and then I went to my grandparents house for dinner. We fed the fish in the pond....and there are bagillion of them...and then I got to drive the golf cart around and a bug ran into my forehead and my grandpa laughed really hard...it was funny...and we saw wild mustard! woo!
The end...I have to try and sleep now. I have rehersal early tomorrow...boo!
I can't sleep because things and thoughts run through my mind, and I can't make my brain relax. Its a constant what I should have said, what I should have did/done, and why I didn't do something...over and over again...and then it all goes back to one person and how I make myself feel guilty for no apparent reason.....there aren't any more prospects...and I really want to get married and not have to go to school...which I will not being doing until I'm done with school...don't worry.
Today I went to school and led and drum circle at an Elementary school...came back and went to orchestra and trio...and then I went to my grandparents house for dinner. We fed the fish in the pond....and there are bagillion of them...and then I got to drive the golf cart around and a bug ran into my forehead and my grandpa laughed really hard...it was funny...and we saw wild mustard! woo!
The end...I have to try and sleep now. I have rehersal early tomorrow...boo!