ssshhhh......
to tell you the truth,at times like this;when i see people close to me planning their upcoming engagements/weddings and thus involving me in it,i can't help but feel that pang of loneliness and abit of jealousy.for those dumbwitted enough:saya maseh single
being the typical person who likes to butt into my frens' relationship where i keep pestering them to like get married so that i can plan and execute their weddings(i am that irritating!!)i am kinda reserved when it comes to my personal life.i suppose 99% of my frens and even bestie-ku sayang didn't know that i was dating this girl for some time ago.before realising that its kinda ridiculous for a guy lyke me(read:setan) to be with somewan really pious like her,so before we develop more into the relationship i backed off..prol because i was kinda scared of the expectations that i assume she might have set for me to achieve.....
or perhaps im still holding onto a flickering candle?
maybe i gave up on the girl because i felt like i was leading her on when the actual fact,i did not have(or even try to develop)feeling for her.mcm suwar jugak aku kan?to be honest,its superb to be single and all but sumwhere sumhow at the back of my head and sumwhere deep down in my heart i miss her.truthfully,i never felt this way with the other girls i dated before..the others were sheer "one night stand"kinda tingys..and im sure glad that we've moved on and become friends all this while...
another random fact:im still friends with my exs/people i dated
i feeling like talking to bestie-ku sayang about this but i suppose she might have guessed this ages ago.and i remember her joking about it once in a while.but im sumhow not ready to bring this matter out in the open with her,so before bestie-ku sayang strangle me to death about that tud-girl issue.
laugh la!but i dated a minah tudung
(so not me,i know!!)
but i think she would merely squeeze my nipples only because i finally bought and gave her wayy belated birthday present(one month late)maaf lahir dan batin hor!!i didn't even snap a pic of it because i bought it after work and straight went to deliver it to her place.i had soo much fun catching up with her and her mum..yes,saya suka melayan mak-mak kawan-kawan aku!!!
the topic mainly on bestie-ku sayang's upcoming engagement(yang sesungguhnyer aku tak tau biler atau adakah ia akan terlaksana?)and gossiping about various random topics that we sumwhere and sumhow came up with..
probably i am on the vip lane to hell already;mengumpat and mengutok orang tak agak-agak