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Well time goes on even though my youngest daughter is gone from our lives forever. I miss her so very much, BUT have "woke" up so to speak. I have three other children whom I feel like I have missed out on their lives in just the past year, because I was a zombie and very depressed, and to be honest I would have rather be dead than to have to live without my daughter. So just recently , I don't know what it was but I looked at my three children and said "Hey, Lizzy would not want me to be like this" So I stopped sleeping all the time and began to take an interest in my other children's lives. I started going on field trips with my two youngest boys,went to their field day just the other day and had such a fun time. I don't remember ever being so happy since Lizzy passed away. And my 15 year old daughter passed her 9th grade entrance exam, so she is beyond thrilled about that and I am so very proud of her! She is now a highschooler with dreams of becoming a nurse/paramedic. Things have changed for the better and I am learning to live life all over again it seems without my darling baby girl Elizabeth. She will always be on my mind and in my heart. My daughter had a poem on her MySpace and I thought it pretty much explained how we must cope with her death now. So I shall post it for you, cherish your children because you never know what can happen in a blink of an eye...........
“You can shed tears that she is gone, or you can smile because she has lived. You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back, or you can open your eyes and see all she's left. Your heart can be empty because you can't see her, or you can be full of the love you shared. You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday, or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday. You can remember her only that she is gone, or you can cherish her memory and let it live on. You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn your back. Or you can do what she'd want: smile, open your eyes, love and go on.”