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lately me and my dad have been having deep talks about the family secretes and my issues but it's only after a loooot of yelling and tears that the problems finally surface. welll today was a yelling day and i don't cry like ever seriously i don't unless i'm deeply touched or really really upset and/or angery. wellllllll i cried so bad that my contacted came out lol. me and dad had a break through ( dang i never thought that those words would ever come out of my mouth) and we talked for an hr or so bout me and pam ( we have issues with each other and many apart but anyways). my step mom never felt right to me i just cant deal w/ her ahhhhhh idk its so confusing. oh yea this person lets call them taylor that name can go either way right. idk how to talk to "taylor" and c if "taylor" feels the same way i do. i wish i could inspect "taylor's" brain. ok new person in my life KATIE she so freakin awsome but i'm havin trouble gettin a convo started some times. at lunch the only reason i sit at that table is to talk to her. is that odd or what? idk maybe i'm insane againn but my shrink said it would be atleast another 5 yrs before my insanity came back. help me but dont life would be boring with out this confusion oh P.S. i wont have any sleep tonight cuz i'm doin an all nighter well bye more later