Who gives a fuck
I spent the night at Gabby's last night and we watch Stuck on You. When we woke up we watch Closer and damn that was the stupidest most fucked up movie I have ever seen. Watching that may have made me the way I feel or it could be the one thing no one knows but Brian. When I got home I called Dana and she did not pick but she called me back like 30 mins later. She said I sounded like something was wrong and wanted to know what it was. Unfortunately, I kinda do to b/c I am not completely sure what is. I think i know but I don't. Ahh I make no sense. Then she started to guess and when she asked if it was something to do w/ gabby I said maybe b/c I just do not know any more. I know nothing is going on between Gabby and me but ppl keep on insisting there is. I have never known what it is like to be in this situation but I must say that it started out amusing and now it is just fucking aggravating. I don't care what happened yesterday or early today or ever I just feel pissed, bitchy and depressed. GOD I HOPE THAT THIS IS JUST PSM. IF not I think I'm gonna do something stupid or just plain shut off the world............. you what that does not sound soo bad. I am serious. That sounds kinda appealing. I need a break from life. Not as much as some ppl but enough to take one. AHHHH Screw the world, let it rot in hell.