Jul 22, 2005 23:02
So summer is almost over and we young peoples got to go back to school, and as I see it this my last year to shine. But I dont know if I want to, b/c every time I try something, and think something good is going to happen I got majoly shit on. See, if I was to go and recap every thing I would get uberly sad, but I think I will just stay away from that then. But if you know me then you know what has happen.
But with us going off next year I am scared that this is the one time that I can have fun and not having to worry about being an adult. I can still be a kid in the since I don't have to pay for things on my own. I mean I will like the everything to come, but I dont know to how far they will go. I just hope that what every I do after high school is better then everything that has ahppen in high school.
And I am sitting here listening to an Incubus song, and it says "I want you bad, I understand why they say high school never ends," and I am scared that is the truth. And if high school is going to be how the rest of my life is going to be then I might just go insane. That would be so uncool.
"untitled" (why dont you tell me)
with the thought of letting go
I wonder what i coudl of done
with the sun setting in to the west
I could never see those eyes
with not knowing what has happen
I feel scared
I feel all alone
because that there is nothing left
I hope this change
I hope that every thing changes
I hope I can feel
I know that I should be able to,
but I dont know if I can
you make me feel something I dont even know
I thought i knew
but I dont
isn't life fun
one sceond you can have the perfect life
then the next you can be standing there with nothing
you make me feel like this
I want a change
DAMN IT I should get a change
There is nothing left here
You made sure of that for me
now, didnt you????
One year I keep on saying
just one year
I think that is all I can say to make me smile
when this year is up
what have happen will be wonders to me
not knowing if I am going to like it
but we will see it
you gave me a month
and i would of gaven you a year
now we have neither
who came out clean in the end
I think that would of been me
but the judges still have to rule
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I pray that high school ends after this year!!!!!!!!!!!