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i don't know how to have all these emotions at the same time. conflicting contradicting doesn't make sense in my head or in my heart. but my eyes... my eyes... they know what to do... they always do. and my heart is in my throat and i can't hear myself think... and i never get past anything. and i never get past anything at all... and if i'm so good then why is there always someone better?
and i can't do anything and i can't be anywhere without out thinking what was and what wasn't and what won't and what did and what didn't.
and i can't do anything without wanting more.
and i can't do anything without wanting more of what isn't there for me.
anymore.
and i can't do anything and i can't be anywhere without out thinking what was and what wasn't and what won't and what did and what didn't.
and i can't do anything without wanting more.
and i can't do anything without wanting more of what isn't there for me.
anymore.