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So today is basically the shittiest day I've had in a long time. I've let down my parents, my mom basically told me I probably wasn't going to college, she didn't say why but she probably meant I either didn't have the discipline for it or that I wouldn't be able to pay for it. I'm saving up for a car, after I fix my parents. I might become a supervisor at Macro eventually.
I just need something stable. I haven't been genuinely happy since last summer. I'm terrified of starting school. I want to do well but I don't know how. It's going to be completely different than last year, we're going to barely have any help. I'm being forced to be independent and it's hard. I'm almost 18. I need this, I know I do. I plan on moving out at some point in the near future, whether it be next summer or while I'm still in school. As long as I have a car and a cell phone and a roof over my head I'll be alright.
When I do go to college, I think I want to go to Johnson. It's close to home, it's laid back, my cousin will be there and Sam and Jeremy and Dan and Caitlyn. I WILL go to college. I want a history related masters so I can teach high school kids. History is a passion of mine and it always has been. I want to prove my parents wrong. Neither of them went to college. My dad could have had free tuition but he fucked it up. I will pay my way through college no matter what. I NEED to prove them wrong.
I just need something stable. I haven't been genuinely happy since last summer. I'm terrified of starting school. I want to do well but I don't know how. It's going to be completely different than last year, we're going to barely have any help. I'm being forced to be independent and it's hard. I'm almost 18. I need this, I know I do. I plan on moving out at some point in the near future, whether it be next summer or while I'm still in school. As long as I have a car and a cell phone and a roof over my head I'll be alright.
When I do go to college, I think I want to go to Johnson. It's close to home, it's laid back, my cousin will be there and Sam and Jeremy and Dan and Caitlyn. I WILL go to college. I want a history related masters so I can teach high school kids. History is a passion of mine and it always has been. I want to prove my parents wrong. Neither of them went to college. My dad could have had free tuition but he fucked it up. I will pay my way through college no matter what. I NEED to prove them wrong.