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oh, it's spring! i can feel the mania pushing outward, bubbling up and over like the starchy water boiling chickpeas on the stove. any moment the eruption will pull my attention to the kitchen, quieting the riot in me for a few hasty breaths. i have longed for these days all winter, like a 4 month chocolate craving that was never satiated only to be given a wrapped easter basked brim-filled with fair trade, organic, dagoba bars. should i wait for that which i don't believe in (i.e Lent) to pass and redeem my "reward"? or indulge with all my being, wasting not the most non-renewable resource i hold: time.
when will my skin give up and allow me to go in everywhich direction at once as i demand? oh, i hope for that day to come soon! knowing that hope renders me powerless and prone to apathy, i try to avoid it.
as for "news," i've got nothing but a positive lens; the sun must be blinding my negativity.
i celebrated the equinox by starting a spring detox. milk thistle for my liver. burdock root for my blood. plenty of water to relax my kidneys. of course, yummy things too, like green tea, dandelion greens, oranges, and olive oil to dislodge the grime inside me from a winter's worth of mashed potatoes and tofu. and all-organic Drain-O for the body.
we (yes, that's code word for Team-Melikey, lovers extraordinaire) are skipping along the path of farmer brown, hoes & germination flats in hand-in-hand. our greenhouse is essentially complete - we added doors and a second layer of 6mil polyetheleyene plastic for more heat and (shh! don't tell the anarchists) aesthetics. today, we are mulching the floor with the permaculture ethic of "Stacking," in mind. layering the floor with straw and leaves and possibly cardboard will provide an immediate source of heat/heat retention - thermal mass. it will also decompose and eventually turn into soil/soil enrichment. finally, the mulch makes the greenhouse extra inviting for cuddle puddles and afternoon naps.
new relationships are growing alongside the leeks, lettuce, broccoli, and onions. i'm learning to let go of people i knew in my past, realizing that our shared past is one of the few commonalities we have. i'll still love these people dearly, and could never shut someone out of my life completely. rather, the urgency to "hang out" and "spend time together" is waning. if i want to devote time to the past, i can read my journals. no sense pretending the boy you loved 6 years ago resides in the body of the man before you today. even if the jokes haven't changed.
my dreams are rememberable again! last night, nate let me test out the latest in SPD shoes - white with orange reflectors. i biked all the way to the 4th ave tavern, not yet aware of my snoring state.
speaking of Olympia, i have nothing but positive feelings. ross and i talk again, perhaps more openly than any other time in the past 8 months. i think i've finally convinced him that i miss him. he has a hard time knowing how much he is loved. i do hope he will be my hitchhiking partner this summer.
when will my skin give up and allow me to go in everywhich direction at once as i demand? oh, i hope for that day to come soon! knowing that hope renders me powerless and prone to apathy, i try to avoid it.
as for "news," i've got nothing but a positive lens; the sun must be blinding my negativity.
i celebrated the equinox by starting a spring detox. milk thistle for my liver. burdock root for my blood. plenty of water to relax my kidneys. of course, yummy things too, like green tea, dandelion greens, oranges, and olive oil to dislodge the grime inside me from a winter's worth of mashed potatoes and tofu. and all-organic Drain-O for the body.
we (yes, that's code word for Team-Melikey, lovers extraordinaire) are skipping along the path of farmer brown, hoes & germination flats in hand-in-hand. our greenhouse is essentially complete - we added doors and a second layer of 6mil polyetheleyene plastic for more heat and (shh! don't tell the anarchists) aesthetics. today, we are mulching the floor with the permaculture ethic of "Stacking," in mind. layering the floor with straw and leaves and possibly cardboard will provide an immediate source of heat/heat retention - thermal mass. it will also decompose and eventually turn into soil/soil enrichment. finally, the mulch makes the greenhouse extra inviting for cuddle puddles and afternoon naps.
new relationships are growing alongside the leeks, lettuce, broccoli, and onions. i'm learning to let go of people i knew in my past, realizing that our shared past is one of the few commonalities we have. i'll still love these people dearly, and could never shut someone out of my life completely. rather, the urgency to "hang out" and "spend time together" is waning. if i want to devote time to the past, i can read my journals. no sense pretending the boy you loved 6 years ago resides in the body of the man before you today. even if the jokes haven't changed.
my dreams are rememberable again! last night, nate let me test out the latest in SPD shoes - white with orange reflectors. i biked all the way to the 4th ave tavern, not yet aware of my snoring state.
speaking of Olympia, i have nothing but positive feelings. ross and i talk again, perhaps more openly than any other time in the past 8 months. i think i've finally convinced him that i miss him. he has a hard time knowing how much he is loved. i do hope he will be my hitchhiking partner this summer.