Today in Anxiety
A productive, abbreviated morning at the office. Halfway through I popped out to get my covid test because it was right in the middle of a class period and I figured my odds of minimal wait were good, and I was right. But as I walked to and from campus I noted short or no lines at the testing sites I passed, which again could be related to class periods or just less people around on Thursdays. Either way, easy peasy. And then as a reward I popped over to The Bread Company and bought a baguette to go with dinner and a sandwich, and said sandwich was soooo delicious. Going to The Bread Company is one of the things we miss most in the pandemic, because it was so easy to meet for lunch or dinner, and have a nice little stroll too.
There was only one person ahead of me in the line at their order/pick-up window, and a couple other people outside at tables, most of whom wore their masks. But I always get extra antsy outside because people don't always wear them outside on the theory that it's safe because non-enclosed space, and I'm just like, HOW DO YOU FEEL COMFORTABLE DOING THAT? WHAT IS THAT LIKE?? In the Before Times I had low-key social anxiety around people, but that has been kicked up, like, so many notches because of covid. I also feel mildly agoraphobic when I'm not in my house/yard or the enclosed space of the library where I work. Which I go back and forth between, "Surely this can't be healthy" and "Well surely this is healthier than nonchalantly gathering in clumps with people."
And speaking of THAT, last night I dreamed I was hanging out with friends and having a good time and then realized there were a bunch of us in an enclosed space without masks, and then the horrendous guilt and anxiety kicked in again. Yeesh. Anyhow, how are you guys???
There was only one person ahead of me in the line at their order/pick-up window, and a couple other people outside at tables, most of whom wore their masks. But I always get extra antsy outside because people don't always wear them outside on the theory that it's safe because non-enclosed space, and I'm just like, HOW DO YOU FEEL COMFORTABLE DOING THAT? WHAT IS THAT LIKE?? In the Before Times I had low-key social anxiety around people, but that has been kicked up, like, so many notches because of covid. I also feel mildly agoraphobic when I'm not in my house/yard or the enclosed space of the library where I work. Which I go back and forth between, "Surely this can't be healthy" and "Well surely this is healthier than nonchalantly gathering in clumps with people."
And speaking of THAT, last night I dreamed I was hanging out with friends and having a good time and then realized there were a bunch of us in an enclosed space without masks, and then the horrendous guilt and anxiety kicked in again. Yeesh. Anyhow, how are you guys???