hey

[caitlinsaaf]

hey people, its tuesday morning. stupid game last night, im still mad about that. umm besides that nothing new here. i really miss caitlin. at least i got to give her her presents before all this...is been 3 weeks today. if i could be able to see her again, i would swear on her life that we wouldnt sneak around. and anyone who knows me, knows how much she means to me, so i would not lie about that. i want to be able to see her again. i see her everywhere, but i cant go over to her, so i just keep on biking. thats so hard to do because i love her, but if i dont, it'll make things worse. and cadets is over now, so im not gonna be able to see her for a long time. and here i am practically every night talking people out of cutting themselves, and stuff like that, and then i go to bed and think about doing it myself. and char, i know you're not going to listen to me, but im still going to try. if you lived here, i would do to you what i was going to do to caitlin if she wouldn't stop. but i can't and im really worried about you. ive tried everything i can to get you to stop, and now it's just up to you. i just hope that you come to your senses about what i said. after school im going to write another entry like i did in my other journal with a couple sentences to a bunch of people. well i have to go now, i'll update again after school.
~*~i love you caitlin~*~ why can't people understand
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