it's hard to say how i feel today...
Okayy so Sunday... me Molly Mickey and Kyle went to the mall for a while then came here then to Mick's g-pa's. Not muchh happened this week.. I don't remember anything except for that it went by really sloww and I had to take my Chemistry final today which I was supposed to take 2 1/2 months ago but my teacher never gave it to me and she just now realized I had a zero on it and that's why I failed last semester. Whatever.. I didn't remember any of that stuff so I most likely failed the final so I'm probably still failing the class.. ugh. Maybe if she would have told me ahead of time that I could use my notes I would have brought them with me.. but nooo. Anyway.. yesterday after school me and Molly went to Streator and went to some kid's house I forgot his name I think it was Joe.. and they were having band practice lol but Brent gave me $15 for driving there so that was nice... so we were there for a while then me Molly and Kyle went to the game for a bit but it was boring so we went home.. but when I was backing out of Kyle's driveway which is like a fricken mile long I ended up in the grass and there's tire marks all over his yard I about pissed my pants. Then me n Mol went home and yeah today was the last day of swimming in PE and right when we got in she said we could get out if we wanted so pretty much all of the girls got out and we just sat in the locker room the whole period and got ready lol it was nicee. Tomorrow morning I'm getting up early so I can meet Sammi and Carlee up at Tiki for coffee and I just remembered that I didn't do my history which I have to do or else I'll get a B in that class for the report card. Damnit I really don't feel like doing homework right now.
Complete and total adoration, my gift to you.. my heart was yours. In ten weeks you shaped it, in one night you murdered it. Torn from my chest and laid at your feet, that first step that you took was the worst. Since then you've walked a thousand miles in solace and short remark, and I still have these memories but will never see what we could have been. Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now? Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go? Remember, cause that's all you can do - we'll never make another memory. I wish I would have died in your arms the last time we were together, so I wouldn't have to wake without you today. This time I thought things were real.. you said they were. What happened? You were a priority, was I an option? I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone. Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled. You knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart, I'm just sorry that it wasn't enough. So, we'll go our own ways, and hopefully you'll remember these things I've told you. Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said is in sincerity. A broken heart is not what I wanted from this.. but I guess I've learned from it. But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes? I don't consider this a mistake. I just wish the story didn't end this way cause I'm still in love with the person who helped me write it. Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go? Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?