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I was reading some of my old entries in my old journal...and wow. There were some towards the end of last year that I want to highlight and give to people. I want to scream "I TOLD YOU SO", and "I WAS RIGHT". I want to run and dance in the street when I am reminded of State Compitions. I want hug some people, and hit others. I even want to kiss some one else. But, the odd thing is, reading how my feelings have changed...I have been through so much these past few years of highschool, it is almost scary...but I have surrvived it. But, the weirdest thing was...reading my "hidden" journal entries. I scared myself, about what I was thinking, I didn't even recognize myself.
But I can't help but wonder if I am a better person...if I changed for the better. And I can't help but laugh at myself. I fear that I will look back in x number of years, and laugh at my entire childhood, and teenage years espesally. I don't want to do that...I don't want to regret it. But looking back on only the past year...I already do. And that scares me the most.
But I can't help but wonder if I am a better person...if I changed for the better. And I can't help but laugh at myself. I fear that I will look back in x number of years, and laugh at my entire childhood, and teenage years espesally. I don't want to do that...I don't want to regret it. But looking back on only the past year...I already do. And that scares me the most.