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*Isn't it weird how...whenever something good happens to a close friend, something horrible happens to me in return (or the other way aroung)
After that long, how can you forget about it all? After that long, how can you throw it all away? How can you not see how stong my feelings are for you? Why do I still miss you? Why do I still miss what we had? Why are you the only one I can act myself around? Why are you the only one that can truely make me happy? After all of this, how do you not understand? How can I make you understand?
I wish you weren't the only one that knew the answers to these questions...
Right now, I am conpletely lost. I am completely confused with what most matters. I am confused with the only think that matters in the end. Now, it is as though he is no longer my best friend. He is a stranger. I need help. I need it all back.
Girls, the reason I am not coming back...I don't know. The group really hurt me, and everyone knows it. I needed that group. I still do. I don't really know where I am in my walk..or if I am even walking. I was so closer and such a better person when I had you girls. When I was there, every Sunday night, that is what I needed. I think the reason I'm not comng back anytime soon..is basically a pride thing. I don't want to go against my word. I don't want to give in. Hopefully, something will change my mind. I love you girls, and I loved our group.
I've had a really hard day today. But, I love it when I get to have good talks with friends. One of my friends was really there for me today. Thank you..you really helped.