so.... emo.....

Dec 08, 2005 01:27

I am no longer a hopeless romantic. All of that has gone.

It's really for the best too because otherwise I'd get so swept up in emotion that I don't know what I'd do with myself. Thinking "what great love did I throw away? We'll never be able to be together because of circumstance, and that is the greatest kind of tragedy there is." Words like unfair, remorse, regret, and frivolous would be the only words standing out in my head.

So thank goodness i'm not a hopeless romantic anymore. It is in fact, hopeless.

I don't think that there is any one person right for someone. There are many right people for someone. I think that everyone adjusts to mold themselves into a different version of what they think another person might want them to be, and if you're lucky, you might find someone who's mold they would want you to be is yourself, and that's being compatible with someone leading to a good relationship with longevity potential.

I don't believe in fate anymore. I believe in both of you being in the right place at the right time under the right circumstances.
However, I do strongly believe in attraction. There are certain people that you are just drawn to, whether it be because of biological or psychological reasons. I believe in grown connection, and bonds. I believe in dependency.

No matter how much someone might disagree and say they're 100% independent, they need someone. They're emotionally dependent on someone. That someone fulfills some kind of emotional need that is necessary for complete happiness on your part. This dependency and being able to rely on one person to fulfill an essential need can lead to feeling things about this person that you may not want to admit to or may not know is dependancy. So you call it love. I'm not denying love, i'm just defining it and what it means to me right now. It's feeling close to someone. Feeling like you can depend on them to be there, to fulfill what you need. And when you face the disappointment that they don't want to fulfill your emotional needs anymore, and that they're not as reliable and constant as you thought, that's heartbreak.

Ask me half a year ago, and I would have said that my current self's definition of love was depressing as all hell. No more "true love," no more "meant to be," no more "soul mates," no more romantic ideals of how two people are meant to be together.

I think if two people can be happy with each other, help each other pass the days, spend some time together, keep each others minds off of what's going wrong in their life and point out what's going right just by being with them, that's amazing. That's simple, and it's special in it's own way.
That in it's plain, innocent simplicity is romantic.
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