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I need to get away.
Maybe I am just not meant for America. Maybe I am a Spanish girl at heart.
I got an email from YWAM Bogota. They were informing me of a missions school in Bogota called the CAR School (Children At Risk). I have a heart for children, fo sho. I don't know if I am meant to go, yet. But I got the email months ago, and for whatever reason kept it. I think I want to go. It's only 4 months, and I think I can make the financial stuff if I apply/get accepted now.
God,
you have this incredible plan for my life. i love my life. i sin consistently, daily, continually. you are so forgiving, and just. i dont nearly deserve even a quarter of what you have given me. God, i want to affect your world, and change it. i want to make a difference in the lives of people, children specifically. i want to see a change, and be the causal factor of that change. i want to change. i dont want to keep living her in stagnancy. thats what i feel i am doing here. i feel like nothing is changing. if i dont leave the country every few months, i feel out of touch, alone, and selfish.
i am though. i am selfish to the core. i have been focusing on me so much lately that i cant even focus on you. my idiot heart fell back in love with doug, even though we cant be together. God, change me, and renew me. fill my heart with you, and let me breathe out love to those around me.
God, i love you. i want to be yours.
Maybe I am just not meant for America. Maybe I am a Spanish girl at heart.
I got an email from YWAM Bogota. They were informing me of a missions school in Bogota called the CAR School (Children At Risk). I have a heart for children, fo sho. I don't know if I am meant to go, yet. But I got the email months ago, and for whatever reason kept it. I think I want to go. It's only 4 months, and I think I can make the financial stuff if I apply/get accepted now.
God,
you have this incredible plan for my life. i love my life. i sin consistently, daily, continually. you are so forgiving, and just. i dont nearly deserve even a quarter of what you have given me. God, i want to affect your world, and change it. i want to make a difference in the lives of people, children specifically. i want to see a change, and be the causal factor of that change. i want to change. i dont want to keep living her in stagnancy. thats what i feel i am doing here. i feel like nothing is changing. if i dont leave the country every few months, i feel out of touch, alone, and selfish.
i am though. i am selfish to the core. i have been focusing on me so much lately that i cant even focus on you. my idiot heart fell back in love with doug, even though we cant be together. God, change me, and renew me. fill my heart with you, and let me breathe out love to those around me.
God, i love you. i want to be yours.