confused :-\
Theres so many things that point in so many different directions that i dont know which way to go. I mean damn you feel something so strong about someone yet they continually confuse you or hurt you or make you not understand what the FUCK they are doing. Its fucking human nature. not one god damn person on this fucking hell hole can do right by anyone. They have to fuck up eventually. Do you ever just feel like people are playing games with you just because of the simple fact that they can? I do. I feel it everyday of my god damn life. Im so sick of crying every night because of one thing or another. Im sick of searching for something and not even knowing what it is or how to find it. Im just fucking sick of feeling sick. I mean i try to think like someone else. Think outside my body and my feelings and my positions. I try to think what would be best for me but no matter how hard i try everything just clouds my head and gets in the way. Like i cant figure it out, i cant move on or get out or work through it. Im stuck. Im stuck and i dont know what im stuck in let alone how to get out of it. AHHHHH im just gonne go scream at the top of my lungs and hope to god that it gets me out of what im in.. because if that doesnt do it i dont know what will.