I conquered senioritis for the first time ever
holy shit. I have 8 fillion things due this week and I got 7,999,999,999 (however many digits are in a fillion). Sonnet = done, Outline = done, government = done, Vocab = done, Studying = kinda done, Calculus = doesn't count cuz that never gets done.
The saddening part of all of this is that I'm rushing to get all of this done, and when I do, the semester's over. Granted, I want the semester over, but that means that I'm only a mere 18 weeks of learning from walking across the stage, receiving my diploma, and being kicked straight in the ass into a real life. I'm not one of those that's scared to start a new life, but I am scared of leaving all my friends and all of these memories. But the closer graduation gets, the more I want to embrace life, but the more I want time to slow down because this is going by too fast. How is it already finals time?
And then there's everyone that's here. These people have made me who I am and I laugh so hard and smile so much and cry so hard and have the best talks. I've been through so much. I used to think that I would be fine leaving all of this, but I won't be. All of the inside jokes, and the talks about religion and god and the things that matter, and the trips to the mall, and pranks, and viva, and the movies, the parties, the skating in del lago, the kisses, the...everything. That's why I'm going to NAU, cuz I can still come back when I want to and even though everything will change, I hope there's still people here who aren't going to abandon their childhood nests and still welcome me. These people mean too much to me. So for everyone who's ok with just saying goodbye, then I don't know why I ever considered you one of my friends. And to everyone who feels a twinge of pain in their heart when they think of next year, I love you.
later,
caiter
"my heart ticks in beat with these kids I grew up with, living like life's going out of style."
The saddening part of all of this is that I'm rushing to get all of this done, and when I do, the semester's over. Granted, I want the semester over, but that means that I'm only a mere 18 weeks of learning from walking across the stage, receiving my diploma, and being kicked straight in the ass into a real life. I'm not one of those that's scared to start a new life, but I am scared of leaving all my friends and all of these memories. But the closer graduation gets, the more I want to embrace life, but the more I want time to slow down because this is going by too fast. How is it already finals time?
And then there's everyone that's here. These people have made me who I am and I laugh so hard and smile so much and cry so hard and have the best talks. I've been through so much. I used to think that I would be fine leaving all of this, but I won't be. All of the inside jokes, and the talks about religion and god and the things that matter, and the trips to the mall, and pranks, and viva, and the movies, the parties, the skating in del lago, the kisses, the...everything. That's why I'm going to NAU, cuz I can still come back when I want to and even though everything will change, I hope there's still people here who aren't going to abandon their childhood nests and still welcome me. These people mean too much to me. So for everyone who's ok with just saying goodbye, then I don't know why I ever considered you one of my friends. And to everyone who feels a twinge of pain in their heart when they think of next year, I love you.
later,
caiter
"my heart ticks in beat with these kids I grew up with, living like life's going out of style."