Life update 3
I. Can't. Effing. Relax.
I'm tense, my back, shoulders and neck ache, and I can't stop thinking. Can anyone meditate? Does it work? Is it good? Would you recommend it to me, and how the hell do I do it???
I was seriously stressed for about six months, I got over that, and now it's back. Thank FUCK I'm not depressed - I think I'd know if I was.
Just really really highly-strung and wound up. I feel like I'm about to snap (not angrily, or anything). I just want my muscles to melt and my mind to stop overanalysing everything.
"Let your mind go blank - think about nothing,' someone suggested to me. Fat lot of good that did. I started thinking about how if nothing is named as such, then it's something, because it's been named, and the whole concept of nothing is screwed because it's there - so it's something! AAAAGHHHHH!
And you know what the worst thing is? I'm really happy. I'm not mopey, or morose. I've started uni, moved, etc, all I really have to worry about is my coursework (which I'll be doing in a minute), and money. I've met some awesome people, I'm having bucketloads of fun, I sort of have a boyfriend, and it's just generally awesome. I just can't relax.
I want to write. I want to write so bad. Someone please give me a prompt, and what kind of genre you want it in - but I don't do smut, sorry, I'm not brave enough yet :P. I'll take more than one prompt...
I feel like I'm neglecting my fandom... lol
On another note, I saw Tiger Army on Wednesday. I'm in more love now than I was to begin with. And that's a LOT of love. They're fucking awesome. The second support band was good, the first was crapful. They were arrogant and had horrible stage presence.
for example:
WARNING - LANGUAGE :P
'ADELAIDE, MAKE SOME NOISE MOTHERFUCKERS!!!'
*pause* someone from the audience - 'Get fucked. It's too hot.' It was. We've had like 11 days in a row over 35 degrees Celcisus. It's stupid.
'TIGER ARMY IS COMING UP AFTER US AND ZOMBIE GHOST TRAIN - ARE YOU EXCITED, MAKE SOME FUCKING NOISE!'
*pause* same guy - 'I said, get fucked, and get off stage. We don't want to see you, and it's too hot.'
'ADELAIDE IS LIVING UP TO THEIR REPUTATION YOU SHITSUCKING MOTHERFUCKERS - ARE YOU EXCITED OR NOT!?'
'Listen, MATE. You're SHIT, we don't give a CRAP, it's TOO FUCKING HOT and we're not here to see you - PISS THE FUCK OFF!!!!'
You should've seen the bassist's face (he was the one yelling at us), he just sort of went, 'unh', and went back to playing, but most of us turned around and went back to the bar and seating.
After that, though, it was a good night!
I'm also trying to stop swearing so much, I swear like someone who swears way too much entirely for their own good. I have an excellent vocabulary, I should take advantage of that.