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Newsflash: I'm really bad at holding grudges.
I mean, I'm pretty stubborn in my opinions generally, but when it comes to staying away from friends who have hurt me, I have troubles. Yes, I will say that what went on last weekend was pretty ridiculous and could have been totally avoided. And yes, I will say that I was very hurt and still am a little hurt that lies could come so easily to people. And yes, there are some people that I'm still ticked off at. However, it all comes down to my optimism.
When someone does something mean to me or that hurts me, of course it makes me angry. But I feel like subconciously I go back to those people because I know that there's a better person inside and that they can revert back to that person. I know I make mistakes and I can go back to being "perfect me" after a bit of rebellion.
I'll always have faith in people. It could be considered a character flaw and sometimes I may see it that way, but for this day and age, I'll say it's a good thing. I'm not going to put my life in the hands of a friend who betrayed me, but I'm not going to not give them the time of day. People deserve chances, I know this. And someone may read this and say, "Hey, what about me?" and to that person I would just say to take a deep deep look back at everything done. There are exceptions. And mostly, I've forgiven for the deed, and I've even forgiven the drama...but there comes a point when even I have to stop and ask myself if I'm getting cheated. And I refuse to let that happen. I'm a strong person and I'm going to watch out for myself as long as I can.
Is my carefree summer here yet? Please oh please let the next 24 school days go by as fast as possible.
I mean, I'm pretty stubborn in my opinions generally, but when it comes to staying away from friends who have hurt me, I have troubles. Yes, I will say that what went on last weekend was pretty ridiculous and could have been totally avoided. And yes, I will say that I was very hurt and still am a little hurt that lies could come so easily to people. And yes, there are some people that I'm still ticked off at. However, it all comes down to my optimism.
When someone does something mean to me or that hurts me, of course it makes me angry. But I feel like subconciously I go back to those people because I know that there's a better person inside and that they can revert back to that person. I know I make mistakes and I can go back to being "perfect me" after a bit of rebellion.
I'll always have faith in people. It could be considered a character flaw and sometimes I may see it that way, but for this day and age, I'll say it's a good thing. I'm not going to put my life in the hands of a friend who betrayed me, but I'm not going to not give them the time of day. People deserve chances, I know this. And someone may read this and say, "Hey, what about me?" and to that person I would just say to take a deep deep look back at everything done. There are exceptions. And mostly, I've forgiven for the deed, and I've even forgiven the drama...but there comes a point when even I have to stop and ask myself if I'm getting cheated. And I refuse to let that happen. I'm a strong person and I'm going to watch out for myself as long as I can.
Is my carefree summer here yet? Please oh please let the next 24 school days go by as fast as possible.