Cleaning House and Storing Away Old Memories
Today I mostly spend cleaning the apartment and the rabbit cage. Yes I know I haven't mentioned
it, but before Richard and I moved out of the old apartment, his mother forced upon us a bunny
rabbit. Apparently Jamie and Naomi liked to chase the bunny around the house and have turned it
uber paranoid. I believe that is the reason why she gave it to us, because she actually felt
sorry for the poor thing. Nickie is the one who has dubbed it Bunny FooFoo.
Denisha called from the jail and we talked for about fifteen minutes, that's all that they would
allow. If she gets out on bond this coming Tuesday, we're going to hang out a bit and catch up
so that she can tell me fully what happened without the worry that someone is monitoring the
call.
Richard also tried to take the truck down to Adam's Friendly Tire today and said that the
workers there were pretty rude except for Adam himself. When I go there, I just stand
there patiently until Adam notices me. Just like I don't wanna piss off people at restaurants
who are going to be making my food, I don't wanna piss off the people who are gonna be working
on my truck. Apparently he doesn't have the right kind of tire and won't until Monday. That
would be my first day of training at Sykes. I'll have to ask Mimi or Pop to borrow one of
their vehicles for Sunday night and most of Monday evening. I also have to ask Mimi if she'll take me on a shopping trip this Saturday or Sunday to help me buy some new clothes for work due to the fact that I am pretty broke at the moment. I really don't NEED new clothes, per se, I would just feel less self-conscious
if I looked a bit nicer. And feeling less self-conscious would be wonderful as I'm already nervous
about going to work in a new place.
And apparently a guy that I went to school with, not necessarily liked however, was hit by a
coal truck while he was on his motorcycle. It was Scott Kinser, who I have no love for. He
was kinda cruel, about my being gay. He's at Bristol Regional, unless I'm mistaken, or it
might be Johnson City. It was actually April Collier who told me. It's amazing how that
girl keeps up with gossip on people that she doesn't even see or necessarily care about.
That's about it. Nickie is probably not hangin' out tonight because her mom said she was kinda
ill. Laurie isn't feelin too swift either, she's gonna try and hang out tomorrow. Kim is comin
over however.
Interestingly enough, Buddha called here today while I was asleep. Apparently Laurie tried to call
his house yesterday and he wanted to know why our number was on his caller ID. Richard was the
one who talked to him and Buddha stated that Kim said it was probably Laurie. Richard said he didn't
seem angry about someone callin from here, just that he wanted to know who and why. I talked to
Laurie and she said that Buddha somehow got Drew's number in Pound and tried to call her there
and that she didn't answer. I really wish things between me and Buddha could be the way
they used to.
I don't like to think about it too much. Ever since the craze of March, I've been trying not
to think about the people I used to hang out that I don't really talk to anymore. Buddha, Jasper,
Kurt, Bloody, etc etc. I really liked them, truth be told. Not in a gay way. I just thought they were pretty cool. I'm sorry that it had to turn out like this. But I watched a movie the other day and Liv Tyler, of all people, actually said something like "You can't obsess about what you were. You gotta focus on what you are." This is true, I suppose. I guess it just kinda hurts to think that I won't be close to these people again and that I just have to, metaphorically speaking, turn my back and keep walkin on.
Sadly, this probably applies to Ruth, Lovell, and Travis as well. I kept thinking that things would
be cool with them but the more time the goes by, the more I tend to doubt it.
Well I'm gonna stop right there before I get too depressed again. Oh well, se la vi.
....Oh and in other news, Christina is getting married to some guy, I don't
know who he is. She gave me her cell number and her online ID so that I could talk to her but I never did. She asked me one time why I hadn't and I said that I had lost it and so she gave it to me again. But still, I never did try to call her or reach her online. At this point, she probably just thinks that I don't want to talk to her and just isn't gonna try anymore. The real reason that I don't, is because Christina and I
have almost nothing in common. She is, in many ways, more of a sister than even Melissa.
She is my step-sister, but I actually lived with her for several years. I guess I'm just nervous
because I'm afraid that if I start talking to Christina, she'll realize that she really can't stand
who I am and everything that encompasses. I love her alot, but she really is a snooty stuck up
sometimes.
it, but before Richard and I moved out of the old apartment, his mother forced upon us a bunny
rabbit. Apparently Jamie and Naomi liked to chase the bunny around the house and have turned it
uber paranoid. I believe that is the reason why she gave it to us, because she actually felt
sorry for the poor thing. Nickie is the one who has dubbed it Bunny FooFoo.
Denisha called from the jail and we talked for about fifteen minutes, that's all that they would
allow. If she gets out on bond this coming Tuesday, we're going to hang out a bit and catch up
so that she can tell me fully what happened without the worry that someone is monitoring the
call.
Richard also tried to take the truck down to Adam's Friendly Tire today and said that the
workers there were pretty rude except for Adam himself. When I go there, I just stand
there patiently until Adam notices me. Just like I don't wanna piss off people at restaurants
who are going to be making my food, I don't wanna piss off the people who are gonna be working
on my truck. Apparently he doesn't have the right kind of tire and won't until Monday. That
would be my first day of training at Sykes. I'll have to ask Mimi or Pop to borrow one of
their vehicles for Sunday night and most of Monday evening. I also have to ask Mimi if she'll take me on a shopping trip this Saturday or Sunday to help me buy some new clothes for work due to the fact that I am pretty broke at the moment. I really don't NEED new clothes, per se, I would just feel less self-conscious
if I looked a bit nicer. And feeling less self-conscious would be wonderful as I'm already nervous
about going to work in a new place.
And apparently a guy that I went to school with, not necessarily liked however, was hit by a
coal truck while he was on his motorcycle. It was Scott Kinser, who I have no love for. He
was kinda cruel, about my being gay. He's at Bristol Regional, unless I'm mistaken, or it
might be Johnson City. It was actually April Collier who told me. It's amazing how that
girl keeps up with gossip on people that she doesn't even see or necessarily care about.
That's about it. Nickie is probably not hangin' out tonight because her mom said she was kinda
ill. Laurie isn't feelin too swift either, she's gonna try and hang out tomorrow. Kim is comin
over however.
Interestingly enough, Buddha called here today while I was asleep. Apparently Laurie tried to call
his house yesterday and he wanted to know why our number was on his caller ID. Richard was the
one who talked to him and Buddha stated that Kim said it was probably Laurie. Richard said he didn't
seem angry about someone callin from here, just that he wanted to know who and why. I talked to
Laurie and she said that Buddha somehow got Drew's number in Pound and tried to call her there
and that she didn't answer. I really wish things between me and Buddha could be the way
they used to.
I don't like to think about it too much. Ever since the craze of March, I've been trying not
to think about the people I used to hang out that I don't really talk to anymore. Buddha, Jasper,
Kurt, Bloody, etc etc. I really liked them, truth be told. Not in a gay way. I just thought they were pretty cool. I'm sorry that it had to turn out like this. But I watched a movie the other day and Liv Tyler, of all people, actually said something like "You can't obsess about what you were. You gotta focus on what you are." This is true, I suppose. I guess it just kinda hurts to think that I won't be close to these people again and that I just have to, metaphorically speaking, turn my back and keep walkin on.
Sadly, this probably applies to Ruth, Lovell, and Travis as well. I kept thinking that things would
be cool with them but the more time the goes by, the more I tend to doubt it.
Well I'm gonna stop right there before I get too depressed again. Oh well, se la vi.
....Oh and in other news, Christina is getting married to some guy, I don't
know who he is. She gave me her cell number and her online ID so that I could talk to her but I never did. She asked me one time why I hadn't and I said that I had lost it and so she gave it to me again. But still, I never did try to call her or reach her online. At this point, she probably just thinks that I don't want to talk to her and just isn't gonna try anymore. The real reason that I don't, is because Christina and I
have almost nothing in common. She is, in many ways, more of a sister than even Melissa.
She is my step-sister, but I actually lived with her for several years. I guess I'm just nervous
because I'm afraid that if I start talking to Christina, she'll realize that she really can't stand
who I am and everything that encompasses. I love her alot, but she really is a snooty stuck up
sometimes.