Another Day Another Notch
Finally put in my application at Crutchfield. I hope I get this job. I really
need a cash flow to start. Even though my first three or four paychecks are already
spent because of medical bills and my speeding ticket.
Yeah and tomorrow is Reta's birthday. So I gotta go down to Wal-Mart and find
a present for her. Probably might be a good idea if it wasn't a DVD. I always
get them that for presents. I just don't know what else to get!
ACK! And one of the side effects of Effexor can be nightmares!!! Great.
That explains the weirdness of my dreams of late. I mean I have bad
nightmares. Really bad nightmares. I've had them almost as long as I can
remember. But these past couple of years they seemed to calm down a little
bit. But lately they've been getting worse. Probably a combination of the
medication and the crap that's been going on in my life of late.
One that I had last week, I dreamed that a demon with yellow eyes and gray skin
was chasing me and I thought I was possessed!!
And the one last night was pretty upsetting. I dreamed that me and Mimi and Pop
were looking for this specific grave in this cemetery. It wasn't in the open
at all. It was totally in the woods and the graveyard itself ran alongside the dirt
road that kind of zig zagged up the hill. It was in the dusk of the day and it felt
like autumn. Well were walking around one of the zigzags and I was carrying a bouquet
of cat-tails that I wanted to put on this grave that we were looking for and were about to pass the cemetery caretaker's grey wooden shack. He was standing in front of it and for someone reason I wanted to avoid him seeing me. But he saw me anyway and came down and said something like "Here lemme do
that for ya." And he took the bouquet of cat-tails and cut all of tops off so that it was
basically just a bunch of sticks and then made them into this kinda of weird symbol/pattern
and said, "There ya go."
Well we proceeded up the dirt road till we got to this double-wide house that we had to go through
to get to where we needed. About that time, Mimi and Pop just kinda disappeared and when I went through
the house there was this family that was mad about their son wearing girls clothes for some reason. I don't know. But when I tried to go out the backdoor I was stopped by one of the girls because she wouldn't let me leave just yet. And then the guy from Texas Chainsaw Massacre came from around the corner in the house. And I bolted out the door.
The house itself sat on this grassy hill that sloped down and evened out and then eventually sloped uphill again. I ran down the hill as fast as I could and someone was running away with me while the Chainsaw guy chased us. By the time that it started to slope uphill there was a barbwire fence blocking
the way and I had to hurtle over it. Well when I did I turned my head and saw that the Chainsaw
guy had been right behind us and he had taken a flying dive and tackled the other person running
away with me and they started rolling. I took that opportunity to keep on running.
The rest of the dream was vague but it involved more frantic running.
Nickie has pointed out to me that most of my dreams involve me running away from something.
She says that I should confront what's in my dreams. Well what's creepy about my dreams of
late is that they have felt SO real that I've had to forcibly calm myself down when I wake
up because I am that freaked out.
Star Wars is in Wise Theater now. I'm gonna ask Kim to see if JJ can get me, her, and Nickie in
so we can watch it soon. I really wanna see it but I don't wanna pay. lol
Getting references actually had me talkin to some people I haven't spoken to in quite a while. One of them was Robbie Boggs who I haven't spoken to since the cruise I took the August after I GRADUATED. Another was Carolyn, my old supe from Travelocity but I got the impression that she didn't wanna talk to me so much as April heh. I don't know, I just think I got on her nerves.
And apparently from what I've heard through the grapevine, Ezra is calling the employees from Travelocity to see if they wanna apply with SI International. I haven't got a call yet. But Kincey that I used to work with at Travelocity who now works with Richard at Virtus, apparently just got a call earlier this week and Ezra even told her that he didn't mean to call her just yet but he had to anyway to get a phone number from her for someone else. And Kincey was a very good agent. I personally think that the reason I haven't received a call is because Ezra doesn't like me too much. Either because he knew me and April's activities, because I'm gay, or he just thought I was bad employee because I left work so much. Whatever the reason, I'm not gettin' a call. lmao. But SI International really isn't who I wanna work for anyway. I just don't wanna make that loooong drive to work everyday.
And for my ending..this quote seemed best.
"In foreign news, we have war, famine, pestilence, and a lot of envy
aimed at our way of life. Stay at home, it's better that way. I'm
Leanne Forge, WCTR News. Stay alert; they're after us."
need a cash flow to start. Even though my first three or four paychecks are already
spent because of medical bills and my speeding ticket.
Yeah and tomorrow is Reta's birthday. So I gotta go down to Wal-Mart and find
a present for her. Probably might be a good idea if it wasn't a DVD. I always
get them that for presents. I just don't know what else to get!
ACK! And one of the side effects of Effexor can be nightmares!!! Great.
That explains the weirdness of my dreams of late. I mean I have bad
nightmares. Really bad nightmares. I've had them almost as long as I can
remember. But these past couple of years they seemed to calm down a little
bit. But lately they've been getting worse. Probably a combination of the
medication and the crap that's been going on in my life of late.
One that I had last week, I dreamed that a demon with yellow eyes and gray skin
was chasing me and I thought I was possessed!!
And the one last night was pretty upsetting. I dreamed that me and Mimi and Pop
were looking for this specific grave in this cemetery. It wasn't in the open
at all. It was totally in the woods and the graveyard itself ran alongside the dirt
road that kind of zig zagged up the hill. It was in the dusk of the day and it felt
like autumn. Well were walking around one of the zigzags and I was carrying a bouquet
of cat-tails that I wanted to put on this grave that we were looking for and were about to pass the cemetery caretaker's grey wooden shack. He was standing in front of it and for someone reason I wanted to avoid him seeing me. But he saw me anyway and came down and said something like "Here lemme do
that for ya." And he took the bouquet of cat-tails and cut all of tops off so that it was
basically just a bunch of sticks and then made them into this kinda of weird symbol/pattern
and said, "There ya go."
Well we proceeded up the dirt road till we got to this double-wide house that we had to go through
to get to where we needed. About that time, Mimi and Pop just kinda disappeared and when I went through
the house there was this family that was mad about their son wearing girls clothes for some reason. I don't know. But when I tried to go out the backdoor I was stopped by one of the girls because she wouldn't let me leave just yet. And then the guy from Texas Chainsaw Massacre came from around the corner in the house. And I bolted out the door.
The house itself sat on this grassy hill that sloped down and evened out and then eventually sloped uphill again. I ran down the hill as fast as I could and someone was running away with me while the Chainsaw guy chased us. By the time that it started to slope uphill there was a barbwire fence blocking
the way and I had to hurtle over it. Well when I did I turned my head and saw that the Chainsaw
guy had been right behind us and he had taken a flying dive and tackled the other person running
away with me and they started rolling. I took that opportunity to keep on running.
The rest of the dream was vague but it involved more frantic running.
Nickie has pointed out to me that most of my dreams involve me running away from something.
She says that I should confront what's in my dreams. Well what's creepy about my dreams of
late is that they have felt SO real that I've had to forcibly calm myself down when I wake
up because I am that freaked out.
Star Wars is in Wise Theater now. I'm gonna ask Kim to see if JJ can get me, her, and Nickie in
so we can watch it soon. I really wanna see it but I don't wanna pay. lol
Getting references actually had me talkin to some people I haven't spoken to in quite a while. One of them was Robbie Boggs who I haven't spoken to since the cruise I took the August after I GRADUATED. Another was Carolyn, my old supe from Travelocity but I got the impression that she didn't wanna talk to me so much as April heh. I don't know, I just think I got on her nerves.
And apparently from what I've heard through the grapevine, Ezra is calling the employees from Travelocity to see if they wanna apply with SI International. I haven't got a call yet. But Kincey that I used to work with at Travelocity who now works with Richard at Virtus, apparently just got a call earlier this week and Ezra even told her that he didn't mean to call her just yet but he had to anyway to get a phone number from her for someone else. And Kincey was a very good agent. I personally think that the reason I haven't received a call is because Ezra doesn't like me too much. Either because he knew me and April's activities, because I'm gay, or he just thought I was bad employee because I left work so much. Whatever the reason, I'm not gettin' a call. lmao. But SI International really isn't who I wanna work for anyway. I just don't wanna make that loooong drive to work everyday.
And for my ending..this quote seemed best.
"In foreign news, we have war, famine, pestilence, and a lot of envy
aimed at our way of life. Stay at home, it's better that way. I'm
Leanne Forge, WCTR News. Stay alert; they're after us."