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Im in denial that one of my best friends in the entire world is leaving. I just keep thinking she is not, that it is a joke but you know what she'll be gone and I don't think she even realises it. Pee parties, parties, cuddling, crazy evenings, laughing, runs, watching howard stern, drinking, smoking, getting caught, crying, boogie nights ha ha,myspace drunk pics, kissing, the "what the fuck did i do last night", drunken messages, and all the wonderful moments ...all thats going to be cut down to such a small amount of time. and even when you do see friends like that it's never the same as when they are always around, because the first day is awkward, the second day you are getting back in the swing of things, and the third day they leave. I HATE THIS. ugh. I also am in denial that i am going back to school, ive come accustomed to my life of being a lush, having amazing fucking friends DON'T EVEN TELL ME THEY ARE NOT, the best nocturnal sleeping pattern, ect. I just can;t handle sat's, tests in general, gym class, teachers that you have to suck up to, idk fuck this. Im ungrounded tonight with no plans. Im really mad, emily is out with adam and that makes me mad even more mad due to the circumstances that i told her...
IT IS AN UNWRITTEN RULE THAT WE ALWAYS HAVE PLANS...expecially when you leave me next weekend. FUCK THIS.
"This is how it ends for me tonight"
ps. not only does emily leave...but deanna and gin and eva will be at another school as well...while i hang out in bernards atleast i have cassie, erin, and steph among others to see
IT IS AN UNWRITTEN RULE THAT WE ALWAYS HAVE PLANS...expecially when you leave me next weekend. FUCK THIS.
"This is how it ends for me tonight"
ps. not only does emily leave...but deanna and gin and eva will be at another school as well...while i hang out in bernards atleast i have cassie, erin, and steph among others to see