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ive come to realise that i am a hypocrit, have jealousy problems, and more secretive than id like to be...
Idk , i get so jealous of little things sometimes, and when it DOES make me upset i dont say anything i just keep queit.
i haven't had anyone to cuddle with in 4 months. :( Yeah, you can be happy without a boy but watching my best friend look so happy with her boyfriend, hearing emily's story, Eva falling in love, Stephanie and Jon obviously being the perfect couple that leaves ginny and I to eachother...which is always nice...but not when she is in another state.
Even when I do have a crush on someone, ive learned not to really tell anyone anymore...you only get hurt by telling people, having them tell you,
A. you're not good enough
B. That person isn't good enough for you
C. oh that person just NEVER has a girlfriend.
....Either way Im trying to look on the brightside and think ," it's summer being single is great , hook up with who you want to " but like everyone knows...i may act it...but im not the hook up type of girl. I kiss the people I crush. So this whole "hookups in summer" really doesn't work for me.
Lighter subjects...
stephanie leaves for Europe tomorrow with her dance team which is pretty cool
im going out tonight with carly and sam
Emily comes home saturday and we have some big plans with a bag and deanna
ginny is home the 7th :)
and my mom and i are starting exercise classes for all of august which is cool
OH and my crazy parents decided that next summer they are going away all of july next year to this beach house they are gonna buy and im welcome to come down whenever i want. ...they are crazy...
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Idk , i get so jealous of little things sometimes, and when it DOES make me upset i dont say anything i just keep queit.
i haven't had anyone to cuddle with in 4 months. :( Yeah, you can be happy without a boy but watching my best friend look so happy with her boyfriend, hearing emily's story, Eva falling in love, Stephanie and Jon obviously being the perfect couple that leaves ginny and I to eachother...which is always nice...but not when she is in another state.
Even when I do have a crush on someone, ive learned not to really tell anyone anymore...you only get hurt by telling people, having them tell you,
A. you're not good enough
B. That person isn't good enough for you
C. oh that person just NEVER has a girlfriend.
....Either way Im trying to look on the brightside and think ," it's summer being single is great , hook up with who you want to " but like everyone knows...i may act it...but im not the hook up type of girl. I kiss the people I crush. So this whole "hookups in summer" really doesn't work for me.
Lighter subjects...
stephanie leaves for Europe tomorrow with her dance team which is pretty cool
im going out tonight with carly and sam
Emily comes home saturday and we have some big plans with a bag and deanna
ginny is home the 7th :)
and my mom and i are starting exercise classes for all of august which is cool
OH and my crazy parents decided that next summer they are going away all of july next year to this beach house they are gonna buy and im welcome to come down whenever i want. ...they are crazy...
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