Your heart was dying fast, and you didn't know what to do
I've never really dated within my circle of friends before. Or even my school. But I suppose I have a larger selection now.
So it seems as if everyone around me is entering a happy relationship. While I'm at the end of a messy one.
Marc started dating somebody recently. And I'm actually really happy for him. I've gotten to know her recently, and if I was going to pick somebody for him, it would be her. I really like her philosophy and point of view.
What I feel over this isn't jealousy. I don't sit pining away for what I threw away. What I feel is regret. I made a bad decision almost 8 months ago and now I'm left wondering what could have been. Would I be blogging happy thoughts instead of letting out my anger here? Would I have somebody who calls me and goes on dates with me instead of dragging around my boyfriend, unwillingly?
I'm sad that I never knew what could have been between him and I. I'm not sure we would have been perfect. He's a little...emotional and I don't like to put up with bullshit like that. But then again I'm putting up with it now. I'm just sad that I threw away something good for something that's turned out to be bad.
And for that I am truly sorry.
So it seems as if everyone around me is entering a happy relationship. While I'm at the end of a messy one.
Marc started dating somebody recently. And I'm actually really happy for him. I've gotten to know her recently, and if I was going to pick somebody for him, it would be her. I really like her philosophy and point of view.
What I feel over this isn't jealousy. I don't sit pining away for what I threw away. What I feel is regret. I made a bad decision almost 8 months ago and now I'm left wondering what could have been. Would I be blogging happy thoughts instead of letting out my anger here? Would I have somebody who calls me and goes on dates with me instead of dragging around my boyfriend, unwillingly?
I'm sad that I never knew what could have been between him and I. I'm not sure we would have been perfect. He's a little...emotional and I don't like to put up with bullshit like that. But then again I'm putting up with it now. I'm just sad that I threw away something good for something that's turned out to be bad.
And for that I am truly sorry.