I'm moving on...
after having such a sad day i have decided something. i am moving on. i cant cry because i miss him, i have to look forward to what is next. and even if i might have a relapse again, i am entitled to it. i can do whatever i want and if someone is my true friend they will support me.
i used to have this idea of the perfect guy for me in my head. i have this picture of what i want. and it goes like this...
...we are sitting on the brick wall outside of a car wash laughing at my inability to catch popcorn in my mouth. he is tall with blonde hair and muscles. he is looking into my eyes with a huge smile on my face and i am looking up at him leaning on him for support. he keeps throwing me more popcorn and i keep missing. he encourages me to keep trying. when i finally catch the damn kernal he gives me a huge hug and holds me in his arms as we smile into the sunset.
how lame is that? its something that i want so bad though. i cry when i think about jeremy but then i start to smile when i think about what could be next. who knows? he could be next too. who in the hell knows anymore?
on to other news...i love working out. its addicting. especially when i eat so many fatty foods. i am going to look goooooood soon.
"i wrote a new song. its called get out of my chair."
i used to have this idea of the perfect guy for me in my head. i have this picture of what i want. and it goes like this...
...we are sitting on the brick wall outside of a car wash laughing at my inability to catch popcorn in my mouth. he is tall with blonde hair and muscles. he is looking into my eyes with a huge smile on my face and i am looking up at him leaning on him for support. he keeps throwing me more popcorn and i keep missing. he encourages me to keep trying. when i finally catch the damn kernal he gives me a huge hug and holds me in his arms as we smile into the sunset.
how lame is that? its something that i want so bad though. i cry when i think about jeremy but then i start to smile when i think about what could be next. who knows? he could be next too. who in the hell knows anymore?
on to other news...i love working out. its addicting. especially when i eat so many fatty foods. i am going to look goooooood soon.
"i wrote a new song. its called get out of my chair."