Stop the music in my head....
I know I haven't written a real entry in a long ass time so i figure I'll do it now.... Right now I'm so depressed but I don't want my boy to know it 'cause then he'll do any and everything in his power to try and cheer me up. I know thats a good thing but I also know that he can't afford it right now because he has to take care of the drama thats going on in his own life...
I need job soooo damn badly but no matter how many job applications I put in I never hear anything back from anyone. I'm so pressed for money with senior year coming back and my senior pics coming in in just two days it's not even funny, nowhere fucking near it. And to add on my parents are on my back about the college thing and what I'm doing after senior year and to be honest as hell i have no fuxin clue and it pisses them off even more but I'm tired of living for them. I try and be happy and when i am they come along and mess with the lil bubble until they pop it. Then they leave for me to clean up the mess and start all over again.... *sigh*
Maggie a.k.a Sasha I'm so glad for you and I really wish you would open up and trust him a lil bit. I mean I don't really know him but it seems like he's not going to hurt you. I hope everything works out for you I love you mi hermana!!
Cassie a.k.a. Lexxie_Marie I have somthing to tell you that I'm not ready to tell him cause I don't want to add that kinda of stress to his life right now. I'm confiding in you because ur the only one i trust with this kinda of news in this state. But i also hope everything is going great for you I can't wait till Max gets back cause i still owe him a slap for that lil smart comment he made ;)
Jessi a.k.a Candi SLOW DOWN GIRL!!!!!!!! lol I mean live life to the fullest and all that but don't forget to take care of your self. I really wish you would come raise hell with me on this rock in only the way you could or I wish that I could go back to Florida and remind them of the kinda shit that Candi and Foxi kick but you kno how things are. MISS YOU LOVE!! don't stop being bad ;)
and lastly but not least...
Scott a.k.a Headbanger lol i loved when you called me kid!!! But it was so great to hear from you even if it was for five minutes. I miss talkin to you and havin' you read my stuff and hearin all your stories of the things you wish you could do. I hope you get to read this and I hope that everything is going great fo you I miss you mi corazon!!! SEND ME AN EMAIL !!!!!!!!!!!!1
I would write to you to mi amor but I know you don't really go on the web. I jut hope your okay and that the reason you haven't returned my calls is cause that girl and you finally hooked up!!! I love you and I hope ur stayin out of trouble!!!
TO all my peoples, friends, lovers, and loves.... I miss you , I love you, and theres nothing you can really do to help change the way i feel right now just let me kno ur there some where close and maybe I'll find a reason to hold on....
I need job soooo damn badly but no matter how many job applications I put in I never hear anything back from anyone. I'm so pressed for money with senior year coming back and my senior pics coming in in just two days it's not even funny, nowhere fucking near it. And to add on my parents are on my back about the college thing and what I'm doing after senior year and to be honest as hell i have no fuxin clue and it pisses them off even more but I'm tired of living for them. I try and be happy and when i am they come along and mess with the lil bubble until they pop it. Then they leave for me to clean up the mess and start all over again.... *sigh*
Maggie a.k.a Sasha I'm so glad for you and I really wish you would open up and trust him a lil bit. I mean I don't really know him but it seems like he's not going to hurt you. I hope everything works out for you I love you mi hermana!!
Cassie a.k.a. Lexxie_Marie I have somthing to tell you that I'm not ready to tell him cause I don't want to add that kinda of stress to his life right now. I'm confiding in you because ur the only one i trust with this kinda of news in this state. But i also hope everything is going great for you I can't wait till Max gets back cause i still owe him a slap for that lil smart comment he made ;)
Jessi a.k.a Candi SLOW DOWN GIRL!!!!!!!! lol I mean live life to the fullest and all that but don't forget to take care of your self. I really wish you would come raise hell with me on this rock in only the way you could or I wish that I could go back to Florida and remind them of the kinda shit that Candi and Foxi kick but you kno how things are. MISS YOU LOVE!! don't stop being bad ;)
and lastly but not least...
Scott a.k.a Headbanger lol i loved when you called me kid!!! But it was so great to hear from you even if it was for five minutes. I miss talkin to you and havin' you read my stuff and hearin all your stories of the things you wish you could do. I hope you get to read this and I hope that everything is going great fo you I miss you mi corazon!!! SEND ME AN EMAIL !!!!!!!!!!!!1
I would write to you to mi amor but I know you don't really go on the web. I jut hope your okay and that the reason you haven't returned my calls is cause that girl and you finally hooked up!!! I love you and I hope ur stayin out of trouble!!!
TO all my peoples, friends, lovers, and loves.... I miss you , I love you, and theres nothing you can really do to help change the way i feel right now just let me kno ur there some where close and maybe I'll find a reason to hold on....