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[cagny]

Today,

I gave a sermon

Everyone was thanking me and giving me “high fives”

I rained upon my bass

Pastors thanked me and affirmed a talent

I rocked out on a beat up guitar

Once more, a job well done

Don’t they know I don’t know what I’m doing?

I don’t even feel like I’ve done anything today

It’s as if I lay in bed all day long and coughed

One cough was a moment - an idea - of a day gone by

I pray all day long for forgiveness

Seeking God, I long for his will and seek his glory

I wait to be empowered - I wait

Some will say that they love God, some will say they hardly knew him

I wait to be crushed

I wait for the weight

Someday I will crawl into my bed

And never wake up

The greatest day of my life

Till then, it feels like I never left it

Or maybe, I wish I never did

I used to say that no matter what happens

This life is an adventure

And I’m going to live it fearlessly and to the fullest

I was wrong to think that

I am very wrong