this is two months old
from march 2nd, 2007:
the one person who i want to read this, will never.
and how nice it is to vomit these words.
how much it aches to know i can't do this in person.
/mangled/
smoked a bowl to calm my nerves. saw only one person's face when i closed my eyes.
it was calming.
but it's a disillusion, considering we don't talk anymore.
the things i could do for people. and the things i would sacrifice to do it.
x
what would you do if you knew you couldn't fail?
[-fall in love-]
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well, i'm glad that he and i talk now. once a week, ish. enough for me. last time we talked, i was in a crisis of moving out and possibly getting myself into a shit-hole debt.. i just blurted "you do realize that when we see eachother in july, it'll be a year since the last time we've seen eachother..right?" and he goes "yeah. you know i wasn't always good with math. i think it'll feel more like 365 minutes. or something."
hmm. but the last part still stands:
what would you do if you knew you couldn't fail?
fall in love.
the one person who i want to read this, will never.
and how nice it is to vomit these words.
how much it aches to know i can't do this in person.
/mangled/
smoked a bowl to calm my nerves. saw only one person's face when i closed my eyes.
it was calming.
but it's a disillusion, considering we don't talk anymore.
the things i could do for people. and the things i would sacrifice to do it.
x
what would you do if you knew you couldn't fail?
[-fall in love-]
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well, i'm glad that he and i talk now. once a week, ish. enough for me. last time we talked, i was in a crisis of moving out and possibly getting myself into a shit-hole debt.. i just blurted "you do realize that when we see eachother in july, it'll be a year since the last time we've seen eachother..right?" and he goes "yeah. you know i wasn't always good with math. i think it'll feel more like 365 minutes. or something."
hmm. but the last part still stands:
what would you do if you knew you couldn't fail?
fall in love.