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... and I guess, when it comes down to it, I'm really not that different from them after all, am I?
We had our reasons, Lest, both of us, though you were always ... you were always better at it than me. You would get caught up in it, you'd ... change. I'd like to say I was just there to protect you, but you didn't need protecting. You were a monster when you had a sword in your hand, and we both know it. You would have been just fine if I never came along.
Except ... Except that one time. I don't know what went wrong, Lest, but you'd better have a really good explanation, once I see you again. We're both going somewhere, and I hope it's the same place, whatever it is. Goddesses, Dragons, it doesn't matter, because you and I, we're the same, and that's all, isn't it?
I ... don't have an explanation for why. Maybe I never did. Maybe all this time I just told myself I was doing the right thing so that I could tell myself I wasn't a monster ... so it wouldn't eat me up inside.
But even saying that, now, I ... I don't feel bad for any of it. It was just what I had to do. You understand that. I know you do. You were the same way.
I guess we're all monsters in the end, aren't we, Lest? One way or another.
... and I guess, when it comes down to it, I'm really not that different from them after all, am I?
We had our reasons, Lest, both of us, though you were always ... you were always better at it than me. You would get caught up in it, you'd ... change. I'd like to say I was just there to protect you, but you didn't need protecting. You were a monster when you had a sword in your hand, and we both know it. You would have been just fine if I never came along.
Except ... Except that one time. I don't know what went wrong, Lest, but you'd better have a really good explanation, once I see you again. We're both going somewhere, and I hope it's the same place, whatever it is. Goddesses, Dragons, it doesn't matter, because you and I, we're the same, and that's all, isn't it?
I ... don't have an explanation for why. Maybe I never did. Maybe all this time I just told myself I was doing the right thing so that I could tell myself I wasn't a monster ... so it wouldn't eat me up inside.
But even saying that, now, I ... I don't feel bad for any of it. It was just what I had to do. You understand that. I know you do. You were the same way.
I guess we're all monsters in the end, aren't we, Lest? One way or another.