I know what's goin on here....GAY!
My parents just finished painting several rooms in our house so I've been shuffling through stuff I have buried in the far corners of my room and to my surprise, I've found "the gay writings". My brothers discovered these writings about 4 years ago ( the event that jilted me out of the closet). It's soo bizarre reading some of these.
This particular entry discusses my thoughts about being homosexual. It was a significant time in my life when I started realizing who I really am and actually, what I really was looking for.
Read for yourself:
It is more important now than it ever was that we make our relationships work. Wherever we have deluded ourselves in our pursuit of love everlasting, we must now sort out truth from illusion, shadow from substance, to find the real core of intimacy in our partnerships. Where we were lacking in information, guidance, inspiration, and motivation supplied by others, we must now supply our own. No more excuses. No more distractions. No more illusions. Being gay in todays society, in my opinion, is far easier than it was 15 + years ago. With time comes not only healing, but acceptance. Society as a whole is constantly evolving. But in our society, gay men and women, seem to have fallen asleep in a wrinkle in time. A time where sex was the main driving force in the gay community and when no one knew of HIV/AIDS. A time of summer love and dreaming. That was then, this is now. A society filled with anger, fear, and prejudice. One where a long-term relationship with two people genuinely loving each other is extinct and the word monogamy is only seldom heard. Then, at times, we dare to wonder why our relationships as well as friendships don't work out. So what is my point you ask? Here it is. That I am a gay man who believes that it is still possible to have a loving, committed, monogamous relationship between two people that can withstand the tests of time. Why, you ask? Because I see so much failure in our society. So much hurt, so much anger, so much jealousy and I long for a life in a much better environment. Away from the drama, away from the stereotypes and away from those people who only bring us down. For ours is a love and a life that should be celebrated, not condemned. My one goal? To find a partner and form a relationship that will be an ebullition to the rest of our society that yes, it is possible for two men to lead an extraordinary life together grounded in honesty, trust, and commitment.
This particular entry discusses my thoughts about being homosexual. It was a significant time in my life when I started realizing who I really am and actually, what I really was looking for.
Read for yourself:
It is more important now than it ever was that we make our relationships work. Wherever we have deluded ourselves in our pursuit of love everlasting, we must now sort out truth from illusion, shadow from substance, to find the real core of intimacy in our partnerships. Where we were lacking in information, guidance, inspiration, and motivation supplied by others, we must now supply our own. No more excuses. No more distractions. No more illusions. Being gay in todays society, in my opinion, is far easier than it was 15 + years ago. With time comes not only healing, but acceptance. Society as a whole is constantly evolving. But in our society, gay men and women, seem to have fallen asleep in a wrinkle in time. A time where sex was the main driving force in the gay community and when no one knew of HIV/AIDS. A time of summer love and dreaming. That was then, this is now. A society filled with anger, fear, and prejudice. One where a long-term relationship with two people genuinely loving each other is extinct and the word monogamy is only seldom heard. Then, at times, we dare to wonder why our relationships as well as friendships don't work out. So what is my point you ask? Here it is. That I am a gay man who believes that it is still possible to have a loving, committed, monogamous relationship between two people that can withstand the tests of time. Why, you ask? Because I see so much failure in our society. So much hurt, so much anger, so much jealousy and I long for a life in a much better environment. Away from the drama, away from the stereotypes and away from those people who only bring us down. For ours is a love and a life that should be celebrated, not condemned. My one goal? To find a partner and form a relationship that will be an ebullition to the rest of our society that yes, it is possible for two men to lead an extraordinary life together grounded in honesty, trust, and commitment.