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So...Kumoricon was this weekend. Lots of fun. I still stick with saying that anime lovers are some of the nicest people you will ever hope to meet. I bought some cool stuff. Got four BLEACH character figurines, Orihime hairclips, an Urahara Kisuke plushie, a Naruto doujin signed by the author of said doujin, and a couple prints from two of my favorite artists on DA. I hurt like hell after dancing for nearly 4 hours in an anime rave - which is pretty much what it is, AND I got an Itachi cosplayer to say he loved me cause I said I loved his costume and character. xD It was great. I also made friends with a Shikamaru and a Tetsu from Peacemaker Kurogane AND a Gabriel from Angel Sanctuary, not to mention this absolutely hillarious and so completely and obviopusly gay guy named Arthur. He was such a sweetheart.
The dance was completely awsome. Hell...the whole con was awsome. Nearly the entire staff of it was dressed as State Alchemists from Full Metal Alchemist. And at the dance there were other cosplayers who got together and were doing these dance battles. There was Cloud vs. Sephiroth, way awsome. Ther were using glowsticks as swords. there was also Shino vs. Zaku and Zabuza vs. Sasuke. Then...Sasuke and Naruto started to have a dance off. It was awsome.
Oh! I also got a pencil bag that looks like a sand ninja scroll. <3
But even after having such a great and fun weekend, I can't help but think about how I seem to be slipping away from my oldest and probably dearest friends.
I went with Alison and Dan all day Saturday, Sunday evening Rory got there, and today it was just Rory and I. Not to say that Monday wasn't fun, it was. It was a lot of fun. But something just seems to be missing anymore. It seems like I want to do everything I can and I'm the only one who wants to get involved. last night at the dance Rory and I were shaking it up with my friend Marci and having a great time...eh....Alison and Dan just sat there, despite mine and Rory's best efforts to get them up and do something. Also...it seems I can't do anything anymore without upsetting one person in my group of friends.
But then...there's also other matters. Like the fact that I'm never included in anything. I mean..as far as stuff goes online. But...whatever. I mean, I only mind it when I don't know that it's going to happen. It'd be nice to frickin' hear from you guys every now and then on what the hell you're doing and at least SEE if I want to be included in any of it. But whatever.
They aren't the only ones, though. I went out with my other friend David a couple of times over the past month, really great guy to hang around and a really good friend, but then....he stopped calling me, or he stopped saying hello.
Do I have the plegue or something? It really hurts my feelings to see my friends kind of turn their back on me like David did, or I feel like I'm starting to move away from my older friends. I don't want to let myself fall behind in my life anymore, but it's kind of depressing to see that gap getting larger and larger. My mother says that's how life is, and that it seems to be a trend in our family. Because it's happened to her, or to my sister, or to me all of our lives. I guess that's one good thing that's come out of this, though. I've gotten closer to my sister.
Maybe I'm jumping the gun here, but...it seems that whenever I try and move forward in life, I look back and feel bad about leaving everyone behind.
I love my friends dearly. Through good and bad, no matter how many things go wrong or how they act. If I didn't then I probably wouldn't be friends with most of them anymore. I just wish they'd move forward with me.
The dance was completely awsome. Hell...the whole con was awsome. Nearly the entire staff of it was dressed as State Alchemists from Full Metal Alchemist. And at the dance there were other cosplayers who got together and were doing these dance battles. There was Cloud vs. Sephiroth, way awsome. Ther were using glowsticks as swords. there was also Shino vs. Zaku and Zabuza vs. Sasuke. Then...Sasuke and Naruto started to have a dance off. It was awsome.
Oh! I also got a pencil bag that looks like a sand ninja scroll. <3
But even after having such a great and fun weekend, I can't help but think about how I seem to be slipping away from my oldest and probably dearest friends.
I went with Alison and Dan all day Saturday, Sunday evening Rory got there, and today it was just Rory and I. Not to say that Monday wasn't fun, it was. It was a lot of fun. But something just seems to be missing anymore. It seems like I want to do everything I can and I'm the only one who wants to get involved. last night at the dance Rory and I were shaking it up with my friend Marci and having a great time...eh....Alison and Dan just sat there, despite mine and Rory's best efforts to get them up and do something. Also...it seems I can't do anything anymore without upsetting one person in my group of friends.
But then...there's also other matters. Like the fact that I'm never included in anything. I mean..as far as stuff goes online. But...whatever. I mean, I only mind it when I don't know that it's going to happen. It'd be nice to frickin' hear from you guys every now and then on what the hell you're doing and at least SEE if I want to be included in any of it. But whatever.
They aren't the only ones, though. I went out with my other friend David a couple of times over the past month, really great guy to hang around and a really good friend, but then....he stopped calling me, or he stopped saying hello.
Do I have the plegue or something? It really hurts my feelings to see my friends kind of turn their back on me like David did, or I feel like I'm starting to move away from my older friends. I don't want to let myself fall behind in my life anymore, but it's kind of depressing to see that gap getting larger and larger. My mother says that's how life is, and that it seems to be a trend in our family. Because it's happened to her, or to my sister, or to me all of our lives. I guess that's one good thing that's come out of this, though. I've gotten closer to my sister.
Maybe I'm jumping the gun here, but...it seems that whenever I try and move forward in life, I look back and feel bad about leaving everyone behind.
I love my friends dearly. Through good and bad, no matter how many things go wrong or how they act. If I didn't then I probably wouldn't be friends with most of them anymore. I just wish they'd move forward with me.