Sigh
Well... Before I said I don't like to post drama, but as you can see: I haven't posted anything in a long time. I really don't know what to say. Life has been moving. It has been moving too fast for me and I have found myself in conflict and frustration. Time always seems to be RUNNING away from me, and some days I hyperventilate trying to figure out what I should be doing over another choice and how the hell am I going to get ANYTHING done.
I don't know what to say. It's funny just how many simple things I want to accomplish: watch shows, watch Buck play Mother 3, hang out with friends, organize my computer files, write the long over due next chapter for my stories... It's not like I want to go to Disney Land or something spectacular like that. It's just GOD DAMN, I feel like I never have time. And~ I'm tired often. Sometimes I fear my heart is weakening and I won't have time to complete these simple tasks before I snuff it. To make matters worse, my parents semi-blackmailed me into taking college classes I didn't want.
Look, I know they are paying for it and how I should be all grateful to them, but it sucks because I didn't have much of a choice: I need their insurance to have my tooth fixed.
*sigh* I became sad to day as Looq read to me a true story from the seventy's. It was a happy story really, but it nature of the story is such that it could not happen today. It is frustrating as I and many others I know desire to have the same freedom from the ignorance and hatefulness of society. I yearn for home.
I don't know what to say. It's funny just how many simple things I want to accomplish: watch shows, watch Buck play Mother 3, hang out with friends, organize my computer files, write the long over due next chapter for my stories... It's not like I want to go to Disney Land or something spectacular like that. It's just GOD DAMN, I feel like I never have time. And~ I'm tired often. Sometimes I fear my heart is weakening and I won't have time to complete these simple tasks before I snuff it. To make matters worse, my parents semi-blackmailed me into taking college classes I didn't want.
Look, I know they are paying for it and how I should be all grateful to them, but it sucks because I didn't have much of a choice: I need their insurance to have my tooth fixed.
*sigh* I became sad to day as Looq read to me a true story from the seventy's. It was a happy story really, but it nature of the story is such that it could not happen today. It is frustrating as I and many others I know desire to have the same freedom from the ignorance and hatefulness of society. I yearn for home.