It's a complicated fear.

[cafeatnight]

You fell down of course,
& then you got up of course
& started over.
Forgot my name of course,
then you started to remember.
Pretty tough to think about
the beginning of december.

You're looking down again,
& then you look me over.
We're laying down again,
on a blanket in the clover.
The same boy you've always known,
well I guess I haven't grown.
The same boy you've always known,
same boy you've always known.

Think of what the past did,
it could've lasted
so put it in your basket.
I hope you know a strong man,
who can lend you a hand
lowering my casket.

I thought this is just today,
& soon you'd been returning.
The coldest blue ocean water
cannot stop my heart & mind
from burning.
Everyone who's in the know says
that's exactly how it goes
& if there's anything good about me
I'm the only one who knows.