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I have had no time to myself this past week. It's been different, having to adjust to this whole new school thing. I don't mind the work, and I like the people. Well, I suppose I don't get all the people who I'm around. Sometimes I feel like I'm sticking out like a sore thumb there. Some of the guys look at me and laugh, which I don't understand why they do; the girls don't talk to me. Well, there are maybe three who do; two of them being seniors. Eh, I just feel like I don't belong. And, I try to figure out why it is this way... but I just get dead ends. I'm just continuing to pray that I would have strength and just be content and not let people bother me. What I found ironic the other day...... I had no homework when I went to study hall, so I brought my bible and was just flipping through. Almost everything I read (Acts, Psalms, Romans, 1 Corinthians, ect)was on the topic of judging. I felt like God was kicking me in the butt. I try hard not to, but I know that when I met the people at school who were laughing in my direction... I passed a judgment. And, even though I try hard not to, I know I can be judging sometimes. And the passages that I read, outright said "Do not judge, for the way you judge, will be the way I will judge you". My mouth kinda hung open after I caught on to the message I believe God was giving me. It's kinda interesting the way God speaks to us....
There are some band issues going on at the moment, which is bothering me. I've decieded that I need to not get into other peoples problems. I am the type of person who always feels like, when someone has a problem, that I want to jump in and help them. Well, I need to stop doing that. I read in a past devotion that "A saint shouldnt get into another saint's problems, because they need to learn to grow in Christ." I need to listen to that.... and I am going to. I end up getting involved in things for my friends because I don't like to let them be alone in their situations.... but, they aren't. That have God, which is where their focus should be. Things get so confusing sometimes. Emotions easly play a big part in our lives. It's hard to focus on whats real, and whats important. As of this moment, I am trying to put my emotions behind me, and just pray.
There are some band issues going on at the moment, which is bothering me. I've decieded that I need to not get into other peoples problems. I am the type of person who always feels like, when someone has a problem, that I want to jump in and help them. Well, I need to stop doing that. I read in a past devotion that "A saint shouldnt get into another saint's problems, because they need to learn to grow in Christ." I need to listen to that.... and I am going to. I end up getting involved in things for my friends because I don't like to let them be alone in their situations.... but, they aren't. That have God, which is where their focus should be. Things get so confusing sometimes. Emotions easly play a big part in our lives. It's hard to focus on whats real, and whats important. As of this moment, I am trying to put my emotions behind me, and just pray.