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my grandfather is dying.
its all very hard to process. i was handling everything really well. until today.
decision has been made, if he stops eating again - no feeding tube. no iv.
he'll probably go rather soon.
been randomly crying all night. foresee that getting worse as days go on as well.
this isn't to get pity or anything. i know everyone gets old and will someday die. just wanted to record this for myself.
i'm going to miss him a whole lot.
its all very hard to process. i was handling everything really well. until today.
decision has been made, if he stops eating again - no feeding tube. no iv.
he'll probably go rather soon.
been randomly crying all night. foresee that getting worse as days go on as well.
this isn't to get pity or anything. i know everyone gets old and will someday die. just wanted to record this for myself.
i'm going to miss him a whole lot.