rant about addition
i know what addiction is. ive seen it, lived it, and had to live with it.
believe me.
i onced pick up my aunt with my dad at 4am when i was sixteen and dragged her into the car while she was ODing on heroin in east austin. then stayed up with her all night while she threw up, laughed, slept and told me things i will never tell another person for the rest of my life.
i have drank a handle of vodka to myself in 12 hours, every 12 hours for weeks on end and blacked out entire weeks of my life.
ive personally dated one of the biggest alcoholics in austin, spending years with the person trying to understand what exactly they rather feel than do...
i know what rock bottom feels like, i know what hating yourself is like, i know what its like to spend hours drunk day dreaming about the future you'll never have unless you can suffer through the reality of your life for long periods of time, sober. its easy to get fucked up, in a way. its legal, and private for most of us. but is it right?
easy vs what is right, yet again. and money is the judge, again.
whos to say whether your dreams are better than what could have been your reality. honestly.
believe me.
i onced pick up my aunt with my dad at 4am when i was sixteen and dragged her into the car while she was ODing on heroin in east austin. then stayed up with her all night while she threw up, laughed, slept and told me things i will never tell another person for the rest of my life.
i have drank a handle of vodka to myself in 12 hours, every 12 hours for weeks on end and blacked out entire weeks of my life.
ive personally dated one of the biggest alcoholics in austin, spending years with the person trying to understand what exactly they rather feel than do...
i know what rock bottom feels like, i know what hating yourself is like, i know what its like to spend hours drunk day dreaming about the future you'll never have unless you can suffer through the reality of your life for long periods of time, sober. its easy to get fucked up, in a way. its legal, and private for most of us. but is it right?
easy vs what is right, yet again. and money is the judge, again.
whos to say whether your dreams are better than what could have been your reality. honestly.