latest goings on
so let's see basic update.
still not sure where i'm living end of this month, lol. prolly my dad's for at least as bit. he's hard up and can't get time off to help move atm, but he offered me to stay at his house 'til march. that's when he can get time off etc. very cool of him, but i'd really like to just move to portland and have done. not to mention his bathroom isn't exactly gimpcessible, so that sucks. may try to be there just a few weeks if i can't get ahold of rental places before christmas. 25th til 2nd i doubt it's even possible.
have a couple friends in portland lookin at places for me. some i had found online, some they knew about. hoping one of the 17 places to look at or looked at work. 8 out of the running so far. as expected 24"+ wide bathroom doors rarely seem to exist in anything older than the 70's.
18 jobs applied for, 3 have said they were filled. one of those 3 said to call them the minute i get up there though, which was encouraging. sadly the gov't ones seem as though they'll take to long, and i may not be at this address/phone by the time they get around to responding. ah well 15 still possible to hear from.
disability services and other such programs don't seem to have anything, or are incapable of getting back to ppl, lol. they were a long shot anyway.
awesomely some of my ffxi (online gaming) friends got together w/o my knowing and decided to send me christmas cards with some helpin' cash in them. thought that was extremely cool of them, especially since i haven't been able to afford to be on the game in a couple months. only in contact lately with one or two. apparently they miss me and want my ass to get moved and get back on the game, lol. you rock guys! thanks, and i'll try to get on soon, and come be the ls pocket rdm. your refresh is my command. :)
still freaking out, still totally depressed. kinda gone past that though to the place where you stop giving a shit. you still work towards the goals, but it's very automaton work (add to that easily pissed off like when i was little). i know its a worse place to be than stress-attack/depression-bouts, but its rather relieving. stuff still gets done, but without the worrisome hope of things going right. i guess a minute bit of hope exists 'cause anything is possible...probable though is a different concept all together. basically i have to pack and plan to deal with going to dad's while still working as if that option didn't exist. most ppl don't seem to get that. the simple response of well just go to your dad's is really most harmful and pulls me back to the depression and away from my quite nice "alia iacta est, now let's go see what we can find to entertain ourselves" state of mind. apparently that confuses ppl, then again i do that a lot.
hope your holiday plans are looking good, and your gifts are bought. may you have just enough snow to make things pretty, but not enough to keep the relatives from leaving. for you southern folks...well close the drapes, have a hot chocolate, and pretend lol.
still not sure where i'm living end of this month, lol. prolly my dad's for at least as bit. he's hard up and can't get time off to help move atm, but he offered me to stay at his house 'til march. that's when he can get time off etc. very cool of him, but i'd really like to just move to portland and have done. not to mention his bathroom isn't exactly gimpcessible, so that sucks. may try to be there just a few weeks if i can't get ahold of rental places before christmas. 25th til 2nd i doubt it's even possible.
have a couple friends in portland lookin at places for me. some i had found online, some they knew about. hoping one of the 17 places to look at or looked at work. 8 out of the running so far. as expected 24"+ wide bathroom doors rarely seem to exist in anything older than the 70's.
18 jobs applied for, 3 have said they were filled. one of those 3 said to call them the minute i get up there though, which was encouraging. sadly the gov't ones seem as though they'll take to long, and i may not be at this address/phone by the time they get around to responding. ah well 15 still possible to hear from.
disability services and other such programs don't seem to have anything, or are incapable of getting back to ppl, lol. they were a long shot anyway.
awesomely some of my ffxi (online gaming) friends got together w/o my knowing and decided to send me christmas cards with some helpin' cash in them. thought that was extremely cool of them, especially since i haven't been able to afford to be on the game in a couple months. only in contact lately with one or two. apparently they miss me and want my ass to get moved and get back on the game, lol. you rock guys! thanks, and i'll try to get on soon, and come be the ls pocket rdm. your refresh is my command. :)
still freaking out, still totally depressed. kinda gone past that though to the place where you stop giving a shit. you still work towards the goals, but it's very automaton work (add to that easily pissed off like when i was little). i know its a worse place to be than stress-attack/depression-bouts, but its rather relieving. stuff still gets done, but without the worrisome hope of things going right. i guess a minute bit of hope exists 'cause anything is possible...probable though is a different concept all together. basically i have to pack and plan to deal with going to dad's while still working as if that option didn't exist. most ppl don't seem to get that. the simple response of well just go to your dad's is really most harmful and pulls me back to the depression and away from my quite nice "alia iacta est, now let's go see what we can find to entertain ourselves" state of mind. apparently that confuses ppl, then again i do that a lot.
hope your holiday plans are looking good, and your gifts are bought. may you have just enough snow to make things pretty, but not enough to keep the relatives from leaving. for you southern folks...well close the drapes, have a hot chocolate, and pretend lol.