Journal Entry, Sunday 6 November
What an incredibly interesting week. Strangely enough, I'm more conflicted now than I was right after the ball.
[charmed for self]
I do not know what to do about Charlie. It is obvious that she is uncomfortable with the idea of becoming a Death Eater - I do not want to force her into something she is not interested in. At the same time, I can not reveal my true nature to her - she would hate me, and that would kill me. Dead. Forever.
Why do I feel this way? Why can I not accept the fact that I am repulsive to her as I am? I have no right to expect her to support me in my endeavors...and as I read back through what I have written, I feel like a pining fool. Things will play out as they will play out.[/charm]
[charmed for Colin and Alex]
At least I could help talk Colin through his difficulties. I would be foolish if I held any illusions that the situation will resolve itself quickly, but hopefully I at least gave him the motivation to seek her out and do what needs to be done.
[/charm]
I have come to the conclusion that women in general make life much more complicated than it needs to be. I wonder if someone could explain that to me.
[charmed for self]
I do not know what to do about Charlie. It is obvious that she is uncomfortable with the idea of becoming a Death Eater - I do not want to force her into something she is not interested in. At the same time, I can not reveal my true nature to her - she would hate me, and that would kill me. Dead. Forever.
Why do I feel this way? Why can I not accept the fact that I am repulsive to her as I am? I have no right to expect her to support me in my endeavors...and as I read back through what I have written, I feel like a pining fool. Things will play out as they will play out.[/charm]
[charmed for Colin and Alex]
At least I could help talk Colin through his difficulties. I would be foolish if I held any illusions that the situation will resolve itself quickly, but hopefully I at least gave him the motivation to seek her out and do what needs to be done.
[/charm]
I have come to the conclusion that women in general make life much more complicated than it needs to be. I wonder if someone could explain that to me.