Manifestation and the downfall of our society
Stress is NOT conducive to manifesting positive things.
It seems totally on a track to derail any progress i make.
I find myself getting angry because I make choices to do things in my own time and place and BAMN... LIFE has other frelling plans. Well you know what? FUCK IT!
Luckily I am currently getting my car repaired
I am TAKING RESPONSIBILITY FOR MY FRELLING LIFE by getting a massage and doing things on my own damn time and place. If others don't like it.. they can frell off!!
I have been so stressed all week. Other folks trying to scare me and freak me out. Others behind me trying to push me... Me trying to get all this RESPONSIBLE stuff done.. like cleaning my house. running errands. taking care of my cat. doing laundry.. .
maintaining a relationship.
Getting to work
etc....
fuck it is hard!~
All I really want to do is this:
I want to be making some more money.. ONLY so I am not stressed each month...
I want to have more time to relax.. and enjoy cooking, growing food, enjoy my relationship... enjoy downtime.. Not worry about weather I can frelling afford to go out and get a beer... or whatever.
Life is about enjoying it.. NOT about stress. You hear me?!???
I am not here to be some frelling slave to some stupid machine. I didn't cause the frelling financial collapse.. Others did. They got greedy.
I have been plowing away.. working on trying to save the planet.. heal the planet.. become more evolved and aware. To be able to love more...
It is frelling CHALLENGING to even go into the grocery store and deal with IDIOTS. No. I have barely an ounce of compassion for folks at the checkout line..
Yesterday. i go through the self chekout at Krogers.
I am getting staples. But I saw a buy one get one free exotic chocolate bar thing so I get two chocolate bars. A treat.
I take them to the checkout. The frelling machine doesn't take off the discount .. I ask the woman about this.. She says "it will take it off when You press pay". I ask "are you sure?" she says yes... I proceed. I press pay It does notthing. "It isn't taking it off" She says It will take it off when you finish the transaction. I SHOULD have known at this point that something was wrong.. But I frelling trusted this idiot checkout woman.
So I finishe my transaction. NOPE.. I have just paid for 2 candy bars. One at 2.79 and another for 3 something (I said they were exotic and I should have gotten 2 for 2.79).
I tell her. She shrugs her shoulders and tells me that I have to go to customer service. URRRRGHHHH!!!.. Stupid woman. She didn't know her frelling job! I was trying to avoid this.; But of course it ends up being MY fault because I proceeded to TRUST her frelling judgement.
I had to then go over and stand int line and wait.. I was pissed Off!!!!... I told the woman at Customer service about this and she says "all two for one is for the same KIND not merely the same brand... I had gotten a super dark chocolate and a dark choloatae with nibs or something..) Of course I tell her this stipulation was NOT clearly marked on the promotional signand she said "its always that way".
FUCK IT. Why don't they just spell this shit out?? Why do they have to hide this? You know why? becuse they know MOST folks won't notice.. and end up paying for 2 chocolate bars when the promotion was two for one.
But the blame gets laid on MY shoulders as a consumer because I didn't kNOW this .. or I didn't real carefully enough.
Fuck My time is precious!!!.. Don't waste it by tryingto manipulate me or trick me into spending more money.
I tried to be a careful consumer.. but I really wanted the fucking chocolate.. and so I trusted the judgement of some stupid check out clerk WHO COULD have explained that to me if she would walk her fat ass over and find out what the problem was. But no.. she lied to me and told me something wrong instead of knowing the policy and explaining it to me.
This is what is wrong with our society. This is probably what happened in many mortgage circumstances... Folks trusting what others say. Becuase they want to believe the other person knows their job and they are trustworthy. NOPE
So we are screwed.....
and this is what causes dissention in the system.