This weekend
I had a nice time this weekend. I spent it with my love. We had a couple of friends over and hung out and ate good food and talked and watched movies and overall it was a nice relaxed weekend....
Yet.. the revery was of course broken. As I was getting ready to leave on Sunday a friend of mine called me in tears to tell me that a friend of her son was horribly murdered on Sat.... Esme Kenney. She was only 13 years old and a student of Waldorf and Creative and Performing arts. She went jogging as she does all the time and never returned. They did an amber alert for her at 10pm and by 3:30am they had found her body. They have a suspect in custody .. a sex offender who had been released from Jail only 5 months earlier.
It has horribly devasted the community. I got home to find several bullitin emails from various listserves about her missing and then about her being murdered.
While I didn't know her.. many of my friends and their kids did.... I may go to the funeral/memorial service to show suppport.
There are too many of these tragic murders... I unfortunatly feel numb ... which is awful... this one hit too close to home. They are all tragic... all horrible... and it is frustrating...
I get these sex offender notices and it feels frustrating... There was some news on how we handle sex offenders... if they are really rehabiliated and how we treat them with red letters and never allow them to integrate back into the community... Yet.. .when you see situations like Esme Kenney's murder.. you understand and you don't want these messed up people in your community. Trying to hold any kind of compassion is hard.
I work in a mental health agency and so my view is that he more than likely had a severe mental illness...what do you do???.. How do you handle it? How to you help avoid situations like that?
What happened on Sat? He lived down the street from her.. so was he following her? Was she caught unawares because she perhaps knew him? What happened? She apparently jogged regularly in the area... but this time... something happened.. and she never returned... I hope we find out...
I tend to be wary... cautious. I don't trust strangers... I have been a single woman.. My first instinct if anyone is following me is to turn around and look.. let the person KNOW I am aware they are there.. I change my stance... I don't go down secluded areas by myself.... If strangers come up asking for $$ or anything I get on alert... I feel guilty... but this is the way we live. I don't give strangers money. I don't stop to talk to strangers... I don't like to be afraid.. but I am not stupid either...I don't mean to judge the stranger on the street... but if you are innocent.. don't follow so close...
if you are aware.. you will know if someon is a threat.. Their energy is different. I deal with mentally ill people every day.... and I am more used to it. I used to be more scared...
It is just about being grounded and aware of your surroundings... listen to your gut. Don't be irrational.. but lock your doors in bad neighborhoods.. it isn't "racist".. it is just common sense Things happen..
Things could happen in GOOD neighborhoods too. I could get mugged or attacked on my street. Other's have. there was a hold up around the corner from me one summer...I woke up at 3am to screaming about someone having a gun and calling the police. I called 911... and told them all I knew. But the victims never went to the police!....
This attitude that the police are evil .. keeps crime happening.
Just basically .. be aware... be grounded... I don't want to live in fear... I refuse to live in fear...
Fear IS the mindkiller....
I send good healing thoughts to the family and friends of Esme Kenney!....
I wish them all well....
Namaste
Yet.. the revery was of course broken. As I was getting ready to leave on Sunday a friend of mine called me in tears to tell me that a friend of her son was horribly murdered on Sat.... Esme Kenney. She was only 13 years old and a student of Waldorf and Creative and Performing arts. She went jogging as she does all the time and never returned. They did an amber alert for her at 10pm and by 3:30am they had found her body. They have a suspect in custody .. a sex offender who had been released from Jail only 5 months earlier.
It has horribly devasted the community. I got home to find several bullitin emails from various listserves about her missing and then about her being murdered.
While I didn't know her.. many of my friends and their kids did.... I may go to the funeral/memorial service to show suppport.
There are too many of these tragic murders... I unfortunatly feel numb ... which is awful... this one hit too close to home. They are all tragic... all horrible... and it is frustrating...
I get these sex offender notices and it feels frustrating... There was some news on how we handle sex offenders... if they are really rehabiliated and how we treat them with red letters and never allow them to integrate back into the community... Yet.. .when you see situations like Esme Kenney's murder.. you understand and you don't want these messed up people in your community. Trying to hold any kind of compassion is hard.
I work in a mental health agency and so my view is that he more than likely had a severe mental illness...what do you do???.. How do you handle it? How to you help avoid situations like that?
What happened on Sat? He lived down the street from her.. so was he following her? Was she caught unawares because she perhaps knew him? What happened? She apparently jogged regularly in the area... but this time... something happened.. and she never returned... I hope we find out...
I tend to be wary... cautious. I don't trust strangers... I have been a single woman.. My first instinct if anyone is following me is to turn around and look.. let the person KNOW I am aware they are there.. I change my stance... I don't go down secluded areas by myself.... If strangers come up asking for $$ or anything I get on alert... I feel guilty... but this is the way we live. I don't give strangers money. I don't stop to talk to strangers... I don't like to be afraid.. but I am not stupid either...I don't mean to judge the stranger on the street... but if you are innocent.. don't follow so close...
if you are aware.. you will know if someon is a threat.. Their energy is different. I deal with mentally ill people every day.... and I am more used to it. I used to be more scared...
It is just about being grounded and aware of your surroundings... listen to your gut. Don't be irrational.. but lock your doors in bad neighborhoods.. it isn't "racist".. it is just common sense Things happen..
Things could happen in GOOD neighborhoods too. I could get mugged or attacked on my street. Other's have. there was a hold up around the corner from me one summer...I woke up at 3am to screaming about someone having a gun and calling the police. I called 911... and told them all I knew. But the victims never went to the police!....
This attitude that the police are evil .. keeps crime happening.
Just basically .. be aware... be grounded... I don't want to live in fear... I refuse to live in fear...
Fear IS the mindkiller....
I send good healing thoughts to the family and friends of Esme Kenney!....
I wish them all well....
Namaste