do not drive it under.

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i dreamed about you last night. do not drive it under. your mothers did not want me there.

either of them.

after the show, after the lights and noise, and i went home alone.
and then there you were.

and i found some connection, a connection. it is mine and mine alone. it is my connection and i feel safe and secure.

i am saddened by the idea that people feel locked into a god paradigm. this idea that they are being judged by god, and that there will not be a second chance. but it is love. the end is only love. and i wish i could express this to everybody. god is love. it is so simple. pain is a teacher. the best thing you can do is just be there.

i want you to know that i love you. but i was afraid to tell you. i was afraid you wouldn't reciprocate. i was afraid to make you feel bad if you didn't feel the same. i was afraid you don't feel the same. i hope you are my soulmate. i am grateful for my lover and soulmate. i had to grieve you.

i trust the universe will provide for me. i trust the process. i trust that i am loved.

i miss you. i miss who i was around you. i want to have that again.