Sorta posting..
I dunno, haven't updated in a while, but I need to get some decent sleep tonight...I really don't like feeling like a zombie all throughout the school day. While I really have no problem sleeping through class, my grades in algebra are suffering and I'm getting so tired I'm almost feeling sick.
What a crappy Monday...doesn't get a whole lot worse.
Nnghh...I'll try focusing on good things...let's see...Christmas....I dunno, Katie got me this Homestar Runner T-shirt, which is awesome...best thing I got from my parents was this little wanna-be MP3 player/FM radio...SUPPOSED to hold 345 songs, but I've capped it out at 93...I guess they forgot to mention that the songs can't be longer than thirty seconds. *rolls eyes*
OK...so I guess I really AM posting...
New Year's Eve was all right, I guess. Spent it at Logan's again...always have fun there...*shivers slightly* 2006......and March 21st is coming up.....*shakes his head*
Sara Elisabeth sent us chocolate from Belgium...dang, that was so long ago, her being here. I tried talking to her on the phone two or three weeks ago. Her english has gotten a bit more rough, I really couldn't understand half of what she said, but it was good to hear her voice again.
My hands are fricking cold...
Algebra test tomorrow...went over to Logan's after one-act practice with Ruis, Chase, and Garrett...well, Chase and Garrett were studying chemistry, but Ruis and I were finishing our chapter review...and Logan, who was with...hm, Kaisa and..I dunno, someone else smart, and they just breezed through the assignment. And me and Ruis, of course, who are god-awful slow, weren't even halfway done.
And speaking of Chase...
He finally told me Saturday night. I guess Logan and Converse had known for a while, and I know he had told Katie about it a good while ago...I guess he got a lot of support from her. And I actually thought I knew what was going on, because all of the hints he was dropping, but ya know...you can't really just GUESS on something like that, because what if you're wrong? Then what're they gonna think?
But yeah...me, Logan, Converse, and Chase left from Katie's...we watched Saved with her, Lori, and Anna...(another somewhat hint, I thought of that)...but yeah..Logan wanted to come over and use the ouija board, and I actually wanted to as well, get some updates, and Converse came along...but then Converse asked me in front of Chase if Chase was coming....now, really, I had no problem with Chase coming over as well except for the fact that we were planning on bringing out the board...which I really was not sure about...after all, me and Chase had got into a really nasty fight about it my freshman year. I really did not want to get into that again, but I said Chase could come and figured we could use it after he went to sleep or just make a sacrifice for the night...
Well, anyway....we were all talking...and Chase brought up his brother, but said that to tell the story he'd have to tell something else...and the room got quiet...it was a bit obvious that the other two knew....but he spent about a whole minute preparing himself, then said it..
"Well...the thing is......is that......................................I'm gay."
Thick tension in the air, I sought for words quickly. I didn't care, really, I was perfectly fine with it, I just wanted to say the thing that I thought he would take as the most accepting. More awkward silence, and I'm like "OK..." and another two seconds later..."Yeah...that's OK."
But anyway...we got past that, and although I saw it coming, I was still a bit...frazzled. I really WAS okay with it, it's just the first time one of my friends has ever told me that. I mean, sure, I know gay guys in AHS that are cool, but I've never had to hear them admit it to me.
But yeah...we just talk and talk for a few hours.....then me and Logan go upstairs to take a piss...and I ask Logan if he still wants to use the board...he says he wants to, and I think that maybe I should just ask Chase if it would be OK if we used it..
Well, we go back down...and it looks like Chase is going to go to sleep...so to put it briefly, we talked some more, stalled, and then I asked Logan if he wanted to bring it out...well, we did, started talking about what we were going to try and find out tonight......
And then Chase sits down next to us, off the bed...and says "This looks interesting..."
I kind of stared at him...thinking, "Uhm...what?"
But he really was....Logan and I decided, being he was a good friend of ours, and he had let us in on a secret, we told him the story...(spent a good 45 minutes explaining the whole damn thing to him too, considering he had no idea)...he seemed kind of hurt that we hadn't let him in on it before, but I pointed out to him the huge fight we had in 9th grade...but yeah....
It was just...weird. He was interested. He believed in it working, especially when we got to know his angel...god, she had a weird name...Deidre or something? Hard to pronounce, too, we spent forever trying to get the pronunciation down...but we tried to get some information on Chase's future, he was curious about it...and she basically told us that he needed to do right things and keep balance...Chase asked if it had to do with his relationship with his parents, and she replied with "Some, but there's a lot more to it."
But besides Chase finding out about his guardian, no updates or progress. I'm getting frustrated. I'm not sure if it's just the time or what....and if that's the case, I'm thinking either my birthday or March 21st.... Well, SOMETHING's going to happen this year....just a question of when and what....
Hmm...
Damn...I say "sorta posting" and I write a novel. How typical is that of me.
Dreading that algebra test tomorrow..
GAH!! Think positive, you stupid twit!!
My stereo isn't reading my CDs...atleast not right away. I have to reinsert them around 20 times before it reads it.... Technology...
Hmm..well...quarter after 9 now...I suppose I should really go to bed...I need the rest...
Meh.
Was a school board meeting tonight...they were confirming the cuts they were going to make for next year.....I'm pretty sure they're cutting Frau...I could go talk to Mom, I think she's home and she went to it.....
Speaking of Frau, I'm going to Europe again in 2007...except that year will be a blast. Although there are a few people going that I absolutely despise, Katie, Dillon, Logan, Chase, and Danica are going...last time I had to hang around Dillon's brother, which wasn't TERRIBLE, but I would have preferred my friends there...things are just a lot more special when you're with people you really care about. I'm excited, but I actually have to earn the money this year. (sigh) The savings bonds my mom stumbled on are gone now, so I'll have to work for that 2 and a half grand now...as soon as the one-act/speech season is done I'll be a part-time...don't know where yet, maybe Pamida, I'd save on gas.
Can't wait til next semester...NO MORE FRICKING MATH CLASSES!! Plus, I get German 2...I'm REALLY excited for that, I miss german class so much. It's going to be slightly depressing though, knowing Frau won't be here next year...to hell with our right-wing School Board. I hate every one of those little-...
Sticking to positive isn't working very well...
Another five minutes and I'll get ready for bed, I suppose...
Hmm...anything else..? ....Ehmmmmmmmmmm......
Oh yeah. That punk Billy Cluff kid was picking on one of the foreign exchange students in Phy-Ed today, I guess. Made her cry even, and started doing it after she was crying. I hate that kid with a burning passion. There are only two people that I REALLY actually hate, and the only other one is Natalie Ritter, and that's just a given.
But yeah...I was going to go have a word with him after school, but Katie found out what I was going to do and got upset with me...basically saying it wouldn't do any good. I guess she thought I was going to go beat the crap out of him...I'm not stupid...I have both speech and one-act and I'd rather not get cut. And that little crap's got basketball, I don't think he'd be stupid enough to throw a punch either...well, I take that back, he might be......but whatever. I just got irritated and left to one-act practice....
I drove her home afterwards...she apologized to me for getting mad, explained herself...I told her it was OK...we basically just disagreed on why the kid does what he does and whether or not talking to him would help anything.
Seriously...that little brat does whatever he wants to whoever he wants and gets away with it. Now I'm not saying the solution is to kick the crap out of him(although I'd REALLY like to do that), but he needs to know that he's being watched. Picking on someone in school, but making someone cry is all together another, especially a foreign exchange student.
Logan and Dillon said they'd help me confront him tomorrow morning. I'm not sure if they'll live up to that or not, after all, they said that they would help me after school and decided they didn't want to, but it doesn't matter to me, I'll go talk to him anyway.
Well, Katie just ended up running out of my car...I waited til she was inside before I swore at the top of my lungs and backed up fairly quickly out of their driveway...walked right into Logan's house, I guess I looked like I had a head full of steam, cuz Logan brought me downstairs and asked me what was up...
It'll be OK. I just need to sleep, blow this thing over...It's not like the argument was even all that heated. I kind of wish she would just trust me sometimes and letting me do what I think is right. It seriously puts a lot more doubt in myself when I'm questioned by one of my good friends on something I think I'm doing right. Don't get me wrong, I'm not that wishy-washy, and if I REALLY want to do something, damnit, I'm going to do it (which is why I'm talking to him tomorrow), but....
Whatever....I'm going to bed.
Looking forward to a bit brighter of a morning,
Gobbes
What a crappy Monday...doesn't get a whole lot worse.
Nnghh...I'll try focusing on good things...let's see...Christmas....I dunno, Katie got me this Homestar Runner T-shirt, which is awesome...best thing I got from my parents was this little wanna-be MP3 player/FM radio...SUPPOSED to hold 345 songs, but I've capped it out at 93...I guess they forgot to mention that the songs can't be longer than thirty seconds. *rolls eyes*
OK...so I guess I really AM posting...
New Year's Eve was all right, I guess. Spent it at Logan's again...always have fun there...*shivers slightly* 2006......and March 21st is coming up.....*shakes his head*
Sara Elisabeth sent us chocolate from Belgium...dang, that was so long ago, her being here. I tried talking to her on the phone two or three weeks ago. Her english has gotten a bit more rough, I really couldn't understand half of what she said, but it was good to hear her voice again.
My hands are fricking cold...
Algebra test tomorrow...went over to Logan's after one-act practice with Ruis, Chase, and Garrett...well, Chase and Garrett were studying chemistry, but Ruis and I were finishing our chapter review...and Logan, who was with...hm, Kaisa and..I dunno, someone else smart, and they just breezed through the assignment. And me and Ruis, of course, who are god-awful slow, weren't even halfway done.
And speaking of Chase...
He finally told me Saturday night. I guess Logan and Converse had known for a while, and I know he had told Katie about it a good while ago...I guess he got a lot of support from her. And I actually thought I knew what was going on, because all of the hints he was dropping, but ya know...you can't really just GUESS on something like that, because what if you're wrong? Then what're they gonna think?
But yeah...me, Logan, Converse, and Chase left from Katie's...we watched Saved with her, Lori, and Anna...(another somewhat hint, I thought of that)...but yeah..Logan wanted to come over and use the ouija board, and I actually wanted to as well, get some updates, and Converse came along...but then Converse asked me in front of Chase if Chase was coming....now, really, I had no problem with Chase coming over as well except for the fact that we were planning on bringing out the board...which I really was not sure about...after all, me and Chase had got into a really nasty fight about it my freshman year. I really did not want to get into that again, but I said Chase could come and figured we could use it after he went to sleep or just make a sacrifice for the night...
Well, anyway....we were all talking...and Chase brought up his brother, but said that to tell the story he'd have to tell something else...and the room got quiet...it was a bit obvious that the other two knew....but he spent about a whole minute preparing himself, then said it..
"Well...the thing is......is that......................................I'm gay."
Thick tension in the air, I sought for words quickly. I didn't care, really, I was perfectly fine with it, I just wanted to say the thing that I thought he would take as the most accepting. More awkward silence, and I'm like "OK..." and another two seconds later..."Yeah...that's OK."
But anyway...we got past that, and although I saw it coming, I was still a bit...frazzled. I really WAS okay with it, it's just the first time one of my friends has ever told me that. I mean, sure, I know gay guys in AHS that are cool, but I've never had to hear them admit it to me.
But yeah...we just talk and talk for a few hours.....then me and Logan go upstairs to take a piss...and I ask Logan if he still wants to use the board...he says he wants to, and I think that maybe I should just ask Chase if it would be OK if we used it..
Well, we go back down...and it looks like Chase is going to go to sleep...so to put it briefly, we talked some more, stalled, and then I asked Logan if he wanted to bring it out...well, we did, started talking about what we were going to try and find out tonight......
And then Chase sits down next to us, off the bed...and says "This looks interesting..."
I kind of stared at him...thinking, "Uhm...what?"
But he really was....Logan and I decided, being he was a good friend of ours, and he had let us in on a secret, we told him the story...(spent a good 45 minutes explaining the whole damn thing to him too, considering he had no idea)...he seemed kind of hurt that we hadn't let him in on it before, but I pointed out to him the huge fight we had in 9th grade...but yeah....
It was just...weird. He was interested. He believed in it working, especially when we got to know his angel...god, she had a weird name...Deidre or something? Hard to pronounce, too, we spent forever trying to get the pronunciation down...but we tried to get some information on Chase's future, he was curious about it...and she basically told us that he needed to do right things and keep balance...Chase asked if it had to do with his relationship with his parents, and she replied with "Some, but there's a lot more to it."
But besides Chase finding out about his guardian, no updates or progress. I'm getting frustrated. I'm not sure if it's just the time or what....and if that's the case, I'm thinking either my birthday or March 21st.... Well, SOMETHING's going to happen this year....just a question of when and what....
Hmm...
Damn...I say "sorta posting" and I write a novel. How typical is that of me.
Dreading that algebra test tomorrow..
GAH!! Think positive, you stupid twit!!
My stereo isn't reading my CDs...atleast not right away. I have to reinsert them around 20 times before it reads it.... Technology...
Hmm..well...quarter after 9 now...I suppose I should really go to bed...I need the rest...
Meh.
Was a school board meeting tonight...they were confirming the cuts they were going to make for next year.....I'm pretty sure they're cutting Frau...I could go talk to Mom, I think she's home and she went to it.....
Speaking of Frau, I'm going to Europe again in 2007...except that year will be a blast. Although there are a few people going that I absolutely despise, Katie, Dillon, Logan, Chase, and Danica are going...last time I had to hang around Dillon's brother, which wasn't TERRIBLE, but I would have preferred my friends there...things are just a lot more special when you're with people you really care about. I'm excited, but I actually have to earn the money this year. (sigh) The savings bonds my mom stumbled on are gone now, so I'll have to work for that 2 and a half grand now...as soon as the one-act/speech season is done I'll be a part-time...don't know where yet, maybe Pamida, I'd save on gas.
Can't wait til next semester...NO MORE FRICKING MATH CLASSES!! Plus, I get German 2...I'm REALLY excited for that, I miss german class so much. It's going to be slightly depressing though, knowing Frau won't be here next year...to hell with our right-wing School Board. I hate every one of those little-...
Sticking to positive isn't working very well...
Another five minutes and I'll get ready for bed, I suppose...
Hmm...anything else..? ....Ehmmmmmmmmmm......
Oh yeah. That punk Billy Cluff kid was picking on one of the foreign exchange students in Phy-Ed today, I guess. Made her cry even, and started doing it after she was crying. I hate that kid with a burning passion. There are only two people that I REALLY actually hate, and the only other one is Natalie Ritter, and that's just a given.
But yeah...I was going to go have a word with him after school, but Katie found out what I was going to do and got upset with me...basically saying it wouldn't do any good. I guess she thought I was going to go beat the crap out of him...I'm not stupid...I have both speech and one-act and I'd rather not get cut. And that little crap's got basketball, I don't think he'd be stupid enough to throw a punch either...well, I take that back, he might be......but whatever. I just got irritated and left to one-act practice....
I drove her home afterwards...she apologized to me for getting mad, explained herself...I told her it was OK...we basically just disagreed on why the kid does what he does and whether or not talking to him would help anything.
Seriously...that little brat does whatever he wants to whoever he wants and gets away with it. Now I'm not saying the solution is to kick the crap out of him(although I'd REALLY like to do that), but he needs to know that he's being watched. Picking on someone in school, but making someone cry is all together another, especially a foreign exchange student.
Logan and Dillon said they'd help me confront him tomorrow morning. I'm not sure if they'll live up to that or not, after all, they said that they would help me after school and decided they didn't want to, but it doesn't matter to me, I'll go talk to him anyway.
Well, Katie just ended up running out of my car...I waited til she was inside before I swore at the top of my lungs and backed up fairly quickly out of their driveway...walked right into Logan's house, I guess I looked like I had a head full of steam, cuz Logan brought me downstairs and asked me what was up...
It'll be OK. I just need to sleep, blow this thing over...It's not like the argument was even all that heated. I kind of wish she would just trust me sometimes and letting me do what I think is right. It seriously puts a lot more doubt in myself when I'm questioned by one of my good friends on something I think I'm doing right. Don't get me wrong, I'm not that wishy-washy, and if I REALLY want to do something, damnit, I'm going to do it (which is why I'm talking to him tomorrow), but....
Whatever....I'm going to bed.
Looking forward to a bit brighter of a morning,
Gobbes