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Well, i have no summer school, so thats good.
I've been thinking alot about my past. I had everything, i talked to her more, and i just loved so many thing's around me while i blindly hated so many other things. Last night, i watched a 1995 family beach trip and that was the saddest, most depressing thing i've ever watched. We were all so happy, and my cousins, grandparents, and aunts were have the time of their life. NEVER again will i have any experiences like that. I had a dream about her last night and i woke up with a smile on my face and moments later a tear running down my cheek because i knew it was just like that video tape, it was all just a speck in time.
So i jotted this down very quickly about my current status on looking at time, a very optimistic for a change:
If the past is the best that has ever happened to us
And the present is just as good as the horrid future.
In the future the past which is currently our present
is better then our uncertain future. We shall treat
this current present as our past, because now is forever.
I've been thinking alot about my past. I had everything, i talked to her more, and i just loved so many thing's around me while i blindly hated so many other things. Last night, i watched a 1995 family beach trip and that was the saddest, most depressing thing i've ever watched. We were all so happy, and my cousins, grandparents, and aunts were have the time of their life. NEVER again will i have any experiences like that. I had a dream about her last night and i woke up with a smile on my face and moments later a tear running down my cheek because i knew it was just like that video tape, it was all just a speck in time.
So i jotted this down very quickly about my current status on looking at time, a very optimistic for a change:
If the past is the best that has ever happened to us
And the present is just as good as the horrid future.
In the future the past which is currently our present
is better then our uncertain future. We shall treat
this current present as our past, because now is forever.