confusion with a K

[cadillacbluuues]

i'm so effing confused right now. what i thought was good might not have been so good. what i thought was happening might not be. my head and my heart and the rest of the world are colliding and nothing makes sense. i dont know what to keep and what to throw away. i dont whats real and whats imaginary. the only person who makes me complete and secure and insanely happy is leaving again tomorrow. she can make sense out of everything in my life. her life makes less sense than mine and she needs me to sort it out with her and im so pissed off that i cant cause shes there and im here. fuck longitudes and latitudes and meaningless distance.
"my heads a carousel of pictures...the spinning never stops"
"i've been thinking. it hurts me thinking that these nights when we've been drinking...they never got me anywhere."
Konstantine is taking hold of this entry in its entirety.