here we go again
so ah!
i wrote like a 4 page entry the other day, but it was from my computer at home, and after i wrote it my computer crashed and deleted the whole thing. then i wrote the whole thing again but i was unable to transfer it to aaron's mac to post. so now im at work (i feel really bad, i should be doing something -- they never should have hooked up the DSL here) and i'm going to try to post yet again..
it's january 21st, 2008, which is crazy! it's ramona's birthday, btw, so happy birthday to her. I dont see her hardly ever anymore (along with all my other friends from high school, pretty much) but i hope she's havin a great day!
Tomorrow I start semester #4 at UNM, after which i'll be done with my sophomore year in college. it's crazy times to think that I'm already almost half done with college, it seems like I just started and here I am with only 2.5 years to go. what's next, graduation, a real job, adulthood? its scary times. I'm excited that i get to go to school though. I thought I wasn't going to because I'm fairly sure my scholarship is getting taken away, but my grandma paid the first installment of what I owed them (some $800 that i have to pay back as soon as I get my tax refund) and so, at least for now, I'm still enrolled and good to go. I'm still waiting on UNM to tell me whether or not they're going to give me the remaining $1800 that my scholarship was going to pay, if they do not then I'm pretty much screwed. The only way I could possibly pay that is to move back home with my parents, and instead of paying $400/month for rent I'd be paying $400/month for tuition, and I'd be forced to live at home. I'm seriously dreading this possibility of living with my parents again, but as I was too lazy to guarantee the continuation of my scholarship I don't have any other choices at this point.
Somewhat luckily my lease is up at vista montana (excuse me, la entrada: they changed the name Jan 1) at the end of next month. After paying rent in like 10 days I'm done paying them forever, which is kinda nice. Aaron and I have lived there for 11 months now, and we've never had a complaint against us or a late rent payment, which is quite a different story from my last apartment, where me and abby never paid rent and the land lord hated us. I'm really going to miss my apartment I know I am, but we really don't want to stay. We've been paying $600/month for a 1 bedroom, all utilities included, but they are raising rent to $650/month and are forcing tenants to start paying their own electricity, which I think is super lame. Like halfway though our lease our apartment complex was sold and we got all new management, and they new ones suck. They're raising prices and are doing little to improve the complex. Plus we just plain hate the evil ladies that work in the office, they dont like me and Aaron. There was a while when they were redoing our roof and we got woken up at 7 am everyday for 2 weeks so that they could get on our roof to fix it, and the managers wouldn't even call us back when we complained and asked what was going on. It's kind of a stupid complaint, I realize, but it made me really mad and I still havn't forgiven them for it.
Whenever UNM finally posts my scholarship information, then, I'll decide where I'll be moving at the end of next month. We refuse to re-lease, but there's tons of other apartments out there, if Aaron and I decide to just get another place together. There's a few obvious problems with that, though: 1) Aaron currently is jobless. He quit his job at Dions like Jan 4th, and has been looking for jobs since but has yet to come across anything enticing. It's given him plenty of time off but has not given him a steady paycheck, so unless he find a new job that works and pays well enough, we can't move out. 2) Aaron and I have not been doing so well lately. Some rather serious shit went down a few weeks ago (I won't get into it) and since then we've just been trying to work through all our problems. Last night was the first time ever, in fact, that Aaron and I didn't sleep together at our apartment, we got in a big fight and I told him to leave. It's really fuckin lame, I must say, I hate that we're not doing well. We've been together like 26 months, and we've lived together for over the past year, it's crazy to see things change so much. I'll tell you this, I do not like sleeping by myself, it was not a fun experience last night.
So, unless Aaron gets a job, we strengthen our relationship, and my scholarship goes through, I'll be moving in with my parents, which is a terribly depressing thought. My parents have 2 spare bedrooms and (mostly) free room and board, but they don't have a whole lot else to offer. They're down for me to party or whatever, assuming I move back in, but it's definately not the same, and I know some arguments are going to arise from me having to follow my parents rules again. After living on my own for 18 months can I really handle being back under my parents roof? Gosh, I hope so. My parents have said that they are down for Aaron to move in, too, so we don't have to be apart, but we're not sure how we feel about that so far. I dont think Aaron would enjoy living with my parents, and that combined with the fact that Aaron and I havn't been doing so great is making us think twice about living together. Again, sad times.
On a somewhat happier note, here's my class schedule for this term:
-Media Theories (C&J 268) ; Tues/Thurs 9:30-10:45 AM
-Comparative Politics (POLS 220) ; Tues/Thurs 11:00-12:15 PM
-Trigonometry (MATH 123) ; Tues/Thurs 12:30-1:45 PM
-Intro to Art History (ARTH 101) ; Tues/Thurs 5:30-6:45 PM
-Beyond Hollywood (MA 212) ; Wed 5:30-9:00 PM
I'm excited for like..almost none of the classes. Beyond Hollywood is a film class Aaron took last term, it sounds fun cause ya get to watch a movie in class every week and stuff but is lame because it's just so freaking long. Trig is probably going to be fairly difficult, but I think I'll do fine as long as I go (its several steps down from what they say I should be taking, I'm taking the easier class I can that fulfills my requirements). The politics and media theories class are probably going to be all stuff that I've already learned in other classes, and art history is a class of like 350 students that will probably be way easy. Not a very hard classload, but not a particularly interesting one, either.
anyways, i'm writing all this at work, and keep stopping to take order and put food into the oven. i should really go. i wish i could write more but aaron always hogs his macbook, so i pretty much dont have internet access. with school starting up again though, hopefully things with change.
i wrote like a 4 page entry the other day, but it was from my computer at home, and after i wrote it my computer crashed and deleted the whole thing. then i wrote the whole thing again but i was unable to transfer it to aaron's mac to post. so now im at work (i feel really bad, i should be doing something -- they never should have hooked up the DSL here) and i'm going to try to post yet again..
it's january 21st, 2008, which is crazy! it's ramona's birthday, btw, so happy birthday to her. I dont see her hardly ever anymore (along with all my other friends from high school, pretty much) but i hope she's havin a great day!
Tomorrow I start semester #4 at UNM, after which i'll be done with my sophomore year in college. it's crazy times to think that I'm already almost half done with college, it seems like I just started and here I am with only 2.5 years to go. what's next, graduation, a real job, adulthood? its scary times. I'm excited that i get to go to school though. I thought I wasn't going to because I'm fairly sure my scholarship is getting taken away, but my grandma paid the first installment of what I owed them (some $800 that i have to pay back as soon as I get my tax refund) and so, at least for now, I'm still enrolled and good to go. I'm still waiting on UNM to tell me whether or not they're going to give me the remaining $1800 that my scholarship was going to pay, if they do not then I'm pretty much screwed. The only way I could possibly pay that is to move back home with my parents, and instead of paying $400/month for rent I'd be paying $400/month for tuition, and I'd be forced to live at home. I'm seriously dreading this possibility of living with my parents again, but as I was too lazy to guarantee the continuation of my scholarship I don't have any other choices at this point.
Somewhat luckily my lease is up at vista montana (excuse me, la entrada: they changed the name Jan 1) at the end of next month. After paying rent in like 10 days I'm done paying them forever, which is kinda nice. Aaron and I have lived there for 11 months now, and we've never had a complaint against us or a late rent payment, which is quite a different story from my last apartment, where me and abby never paid rent and the land lord hated us. I'm really going to miss my apartment I know I am, but we really don't want to stay. We've been paying $600/month for a 1 bedroom, all utilities included, but they are raising rent to $650/month and are forcing tenants to start paying their own electricity, which I think is super lame. Like halfway though our lease our apartment complex was sold and we got all new management, and they new ones suck. They're raising prices and are doing little to improve the complex. Plus we just plain hate the evil ladies that work in the office, they dont like me and Aaron. There was a while when they were redoing our roof and we got woken up at 7 am everyday for 2 weeks so that they could get on our roof to fix it, and the managers wouldn't even call us back when we complained and asked what was going on. It's kind of a stupid complaint, I realize, but it made me really mad and I still havn't forgiven them for it.
Whenever UNM finally posts my scholarship information, then, I'll decide where I'll be moving at the end of next month. We refuse to re-lease, but there's tons of other apartments out there, if Aaron and I decide to just get another place together. There's a few obvious problems with that, though: 1) Aaron currently is jobless. He quit his job at Dions like Jan 4th, and has been looking for jobs since but has yet to come across anything enticing. It's given him plenty of time off but has not given him a steady paycheck, so unless he find a new job that works and pays well enough, we can't move out. 2) Aaron and I have not been doing so well lately. Some rather serious shit went down a few weeks ago (I won't get into it) and since then we've just been trying to work through all our problems. Last night was the first time ever, in fact, that Aaron and I didn't sleep together at our apartment, we got in a big fight and I told him to leave. It's really fuckin lame, I must say, I hate that we're not doing well. We've been together like 26 months, and we've lived together for over the past year, it's crazy to see things change so much. I'll tell you this, I do not like sleeping by myself, it was not a fun experience last night.
So, unless Aaron gets a job, we strengthen our relationship, and my scholarship goes through, I'll be moving in with my parents, which is a terribly depressing thought. My parents have 2 spare bedrooms and (mostly) free room and board, but they don't have a whole lot else to offer. They're down for me to party or whatever, assuming I move back in, but it's definately not the same, and I know some arguments are going to arise from me having to follow my parents rules again. After living on my own for 18 months can I really handle being back under my parents roof? Gosh, I hope so. My parents have said that they are down for Aaron to move in, too, so we don't have to be apart, but we're not sure how we feel about that so far. I dont think Aaron would enjoy living with my parents, and that combined with the fact that Aaron and I havn't been doing so great is making us think twice about living together. Again, sad times.
On a somewhat happier note, here's my class schedule for this term:
-Media Theories (C&J 268) ; Tues/Thurs 9:30-10:45 AM
-Comparative Politics (POLS 220) ; Tues/Thurs 11:00-12:15 PM
-Trigonometry (MATH 123) ; Tues/Thurs 12:30-1:45 PM
-Intro to Art History (ARTH 101) ; Tues/Thurs 5:30-6:45 PM
-Beyond Hollywood (MA 212) ; Wed 5:30-9:00 PM
I'm excited for like..almost none of the classes. Beyond Hollywood is a film class Aaron took last term, it sounds fun cause ya get to watch a movie in class every week and stuff but is lame because it's just so freaking long. Trig is probably going to be fairly difficult, but I think I'll do fine as long as I go (its several steps down from what they say I should be taking, I'm taking the easier class I can that fulfills my requirements). The politics and media theories class are probably going to be all stuff that I've already learned in other classes, and art history is a class of like 350 students that will probably be way easy. Not a very hard classload, but not a particularly interesting one, either.
anyways, i'm writing all this at work, and keep stopping to take order and put food into the oven. i should really go. i wish i could write more but aaron always hogs his macbook, so i pretty much dont have internet access. with school starting up again though, hopefully things with change.